"Suicidal Thoughts" as written by Christopher Wallace and Robert A Hall....
Hello, aw, shit nigga
What the fuck time is it
Oh, goddamn, nigga do you know what time it is
Aw, shit, what the fuck is going on
You alright? Nigga what the fuck is wrong with you

When I die, fuck it I wanna go to hell
Cause I'm a piece of shit, it ain't hard to fuckin' tell
It don't make sense, goin' to heaven with the goodie-goodies
Dressed in white, I like black Tims and black hoodies
God'll prolly have me on some real strict shit
No sleepin' all day, no gettin' my dick licked
Hangin' with the goodie-goodies loungin' in paradise
Fuck that shit, I wanna tote guns and shoot dice
All my life I been considered as the worst
Lyin' to my mother, even stealin' out her purse
Crime after crime, from drugs to extortion
I know my mother wished she got a fucking abortion
She don't even love me like she did when I was younger
Suckin' on her chest just to stop my fuckin' hunger
I wonder if I died, would tears come to her eyes
Forgive me for my disrespect, forgive me for my lies
My baby mother's eight months, her little sister's two
Who's to blame for both of them, (naw nigga, not you)
I swear to God I want to just slit my wrists and end this bullshit
Throw the Magnum to my head, threaten to pull shit
And squeeze, until the bed's completely red
I'm glad I'm dead, a worthless fuckin' buddah head
The stress is building up, I can't
I can't believe suicide's on my fucking mind, I wanna leave
I swear to God I feel like death is fucking calling me
Naw you wouldn't understand
Nigga, talk to me please
You see it's kinda like the crack did to Pookie, in New Jack
Except when I cross over, there ain't no comin' back
Should I die on the train track, like Ramo in Beatstreet
People at the funeral fronting like they miss me
My baby momma kissed me but she glad I'm gone
She knew me and her sister had somethin' goin' on
I reach my peak, I can't speak
Call my nigga Chic, tell him that my will is weak
I'm sick of niggas lying, I'm sick of bitches hawkin'
Matter of fact, I'm sick of talkin'

Ayo Big, ayo Big


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"Suicidal Thoughts" as written by Christopher Wallace Robert A Hall

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  • +1
    General CommentI think it's songs like this that really differentiate Biggie from other gangsta rappers of our time... I think most would agree much of modern day hip-hop consists of quite vapid and empty lyrics, primarily glorifying their own egos & sex, etc. I'm not much for feuds, but I always found 2pac much more self-aggrandizing and conceited than Biggie--nothing 'pac has ever done measures up, emotionally, to this song.

    Biggie was really in a league of his own in his rapping skills and his honesty. I get the feeling listening to this song that music is actually a form of therapy, perhaps, for Biggie (or was). It's a shame that his violent predictions were so accurate. Hopefully through songs like this, he was able to release some demons before his death.
    scienceon November 20, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General Commentbiggie claimed he was high when he wrote it. this is one of those songs that you dont just write for no reason. he is using suicide in the song to make the point hes not afraid of death. hes talking on the phone to get all the shit off his chest and admit what the deal is... like when he apologizes to his mom. the gun shot at the end symbolizes his confession and how hes got nothing to hide anymore.
    yeayeayeagetbenton February 27, 2007   Link
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    General CommentSometimes i'm thinking about suicide...and I listen to this song...so i'm thinking somebody else might be thinking about killing themself and gets to this song lyric. So if you're out there, do you man...I know how hard it can be... so far still alive, been thinking about this killing myself for 3 years now,


    on a side note, BIG was like the babe ruth of rap....the first legend
    mkelly87on May 10, 2010   Link
  • 0
    General Commentlast song in "ready to die"
    blows me away to listen to it.
    You cant deny biggies intense
    delmar3432on June 06, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI cant believe there like no comments on this song. This is my fav biggie song, its so good. Definently my fav song about suicide.
    Dismalon December 09, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General Commentlove this song.
    Kryoon July 05, 2008   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI love how this son comes at the end of Ready to Die and Life After Death picks right up where this left off. Such a great song, one of his best
    grayarea9on October 08, 2008   Link
  • 0
    My Opinionthis is one of the best rap songs ive ever heard
    its kinda sad how theres only 8 comments for it.
    BeatrixSteakon January 19, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General Commenthow is there only nine comments?
    this song is amazing, obvs about suicide.
    probably my favorite song by biggie. so deep <3
    billy talent is godon November 19, 2009   Link
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    General Commentm
    mkelly87on May 10, 2010   Link

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