"Medicine Bottle" as written by and Mark Edward Kozelek....
Giving into love and sharing my time
Letting someone into my misery
I told it all step by step
How I landed on the island
And how I swam across the sea
And it crosses my mind
That I may wake to a knife in me
No more breath in my hair
Or ladies' underwear
Tossed up over the alarm clock
Blood dripping from the bed
To a neatly written poem
A heartfelt last line reading
There is no more mystery
It it going to happen my love

It's all in your head she said
Morning after nightmare
You're building a wall she said
Higher than the both of us
So try living life
Instead of hiding in the bedroom
Show me a smile
And I'll promise not to leave you

It happened under a rainy cloud
Passing through the dark south
We went into a big house
And slept in a small bed
I didn't know you then
As well as you of me
We talked of our sad lives
And we went off separately
I found your overseas souvenirs
Holiday greeting cards
And some long forgotten high school fears
It's all in my head I said
Banging a piano
I've not been so alone I thought
Since kicking in the womb
I drank so much tea
I wrote my letters in kanji
Around the block I walked and walked
Pretending you were with me
Not wanting to die out here
Without you

The hurting never ends
Like birthdays and old friends
We forget what is flesh blood and bone is human
Turning phone lines to airlines
Unwilling to face
The love is found on the inside not the outside
And like a medicine bottle
In the cabinet I'll keep you
And like a medicine bottle
In my hand I will hold you
And swallow you slowly
As to last me a lifetime
Without holding too tight
I do not want to lose
The thrill that it gives me
To look out from my window
And scowl at the houses
From my world in the bedroom
It's all in my head she read
In her girlfriend's self-help book
It's all his own making
A war with himself
Like two sides of a wall
That separates two countries
He shuts out the world
And wants only to love you

Not wanting to die out here
Without you


Lyrics submitted by ThreeMilesDown, edited by siwamies

"Medicine Bottle" as written by Mark Edward Kozelek

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    General Commenti love this song. i think it's about a guy who's really depressed and melancholy and falls in love with a girl who's pretty happy. she keeps trying to get him to see past his depression, but he can't and it causes problems between them. these lines pretty much point that out : it's all in your head she said
    morning after nightmare
    you're building a wall she said
    higher than the both of us
    so try living life
    instead of hiding in the bedroom
    show me a smile
    and i'll promise not to leave you
    they seperate for the last time in the second verse "it's all in my head i said
    banging a piano
    i've not been so alone i thought
    since kicking in the womb
    i drank so much tea
    i wrote my letters in kanji
    around the block i walked and walked
    pretending you were with me
    not wanting to die out here
    without you"
    He misses her alot. The part about the medicine bottle, he's going to hold onto her memory and "swallow her you slowly" or in other take it all in. at the same time, he wants her back so much and he doesn't care about anything else "it's all his own making
    a war with himself
    like two sides of a wall
    that separates two countries
    he shuts out the world
    and wants only to love you"
    Oh yeah, and instead of him being depressed, he could also be struggling with a drug addiction.
    matrixmouse7on June 04, 2003   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI love how there are no really difficult metaphors and the like in this and it is just him expressing his emotions.
    cerealiscoolon November 10, 2005   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis is the song I always put on to cry to. The image of a sad boy in his room scowling out at the world through his depression just breaks my heart because I feel such a kindred spirit to Mark.
    paranoid schizoidon September 24, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Commenti have trouble listening to this song as it is too close to home sometimes
    joeldeon November 14, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentSuch a difficult song to listen to. It's amazing.
    Mubarizon January 03, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General Commentvery powerful song
    piloton September 06, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI wonder if he could even be schizophrenic, based on the line about his mind being divided like two countries. Either way, it's so fucking upsetting.
    Anilandon June 22, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI would wager both addiction and depression, Matrix.

    From the very little I know about the lyricist's life, he struggled with pill popping from a young age...though I don't think it's ever been specified what exactly he took. I've also read somewhere there was a period of his life he almost never left his room. It would not surprise me if parts of this song were taken directly from Mark Kozelek's own life.

    "It's all in your head she said," -->She's trying to get him to 'lighten up' for lack of better words. She doesn't want him to be so miserable all the time.

    "It's all in my head I said" --> He's trying to convince himself he doesn't need to be miserable all the time.

    "It's all in his head she read from the girlfriend's self help book" --> His girlfriend is trying to cope with an extremely intense sadness he possesses.

    I heard this song performed live. It's pretty obvious how personal it is to him' and also obvious why he refuses to perform it live anymore.
    Kiyehoon May 06, 2005   Link
  • 0
    General CommentPure gold. I can sleep to this.
    ToB_NarooNon August 10, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThere is NO ESCAPE from this worst gangster police state, using ALL of the deadly gangster Frankenstein controls!
    francisdec11on May 16, 2012   Link

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