"X.Y.U." as written by and William Corgan....
She didn't wanna be, she didn't wanna know
She couldn't run away cause she was crazy
She gave it all away, she saw her baby break
And in the air it hung that she was dull razors
And I said I wanna fill you up, I wanna break you, I wanna give you up
From one another, another one should come to one another
No one should come between us
Still I was lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only
Knows that she could never hide
I couldn't feel her, and it was just a game,
'Cause I was lonely and she was crazy
Rat-tat-tat, ka boom boom, now take that, and just a bit of this
'Cause I'm a watcher, and I'm a doer of none
Come to save you, cause you're all mine
I hurt where I can't feel, I feel where I can't hurt
I know where I can't know, I bleed for me and mine
Ka-boom, a rat-tat-tat, and some good ole bliss
Cause I'm a sister, and I'm a motherfuck
I am made of shamrocks, I am made of stern stuff
I am never enough, I am the forgotten child
And I said I wanna fill you up, I wanna break you, I wanna give you up
From one another, no one should ever come
In between us, between us and our love
Mary had a little lamb, her face was white as snow
And everywhere that Mary went I was sure to go
Now Mary's got a problem, and Mary's not a stupid girl
Mary's got some deep shit, and Mary does not forget
And this is how Mary's garden grows, and this is how Mary has her ghosts
And into the eyes of the jackyl I say ka-boom
Now we begin descent, to where we've never been
There is no going back, this wasn't meant to last
This is a hell on earth, we are meant to serve
And she will never learn [she will never learn]
Bye bye, baby goodbye [bye bye]


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  • +2
    Song MeaningBilly Corgan, in a recent interview, mentioned that the song was about "sexual obsession", so to some extent that should inform the interpretation.
    doubleutfon May 17, 2013   Link
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    General CommentHate to be cliché, but in two words: Courtney Love.

    Billy used to write her long sappy love letters, and go to great lengths to promote Hole as a group. He also contributed a great deal of writing to the band. This strikes me as what he felt in the aftermath of their relationship. He gave her a LOT, and all he got out of it was Courtney the psycho bitch.

    A lot of verses could refer to Love's drug abuse, the battles surrounding her custody of her daughter, and Kurt's untimely death. Others seem like Billy's bitterness about being the 'other man'. "I am never enough, I am the forgotten child" illustrates this very well.
    Statuson April 30, 2003   Link
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    General CommentI think the song is about Billy latching onto a girl who isn't mentally stable, and who really isn't a good girlfriend. He stays because he doesn't want to be lonely. He knows that he doesn't really feel for the girl, but still stays with her, possibly just for a companion, possibly out of sexual lust (He does say "I want to rape you"). Eventually the whole relationship blows up, and this song is the emotional outpouring fromt that.
    The Savioron November 08, 2004   Link
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    General CommentEx- why you? How do you get Courtney Love?? I'm pretty sure it has to do with his EX wife, Chris. I think: Mary=Chris... Lamb=Billy. I don't think the 'problem and deep shit' are about a baby- but about a sucky relationship, marriage and what not.

    'i am made of shamrocks, i am made of stern stuff' = mr. BC, born on St. pattys day.

    it's a killer song. Personal- i think it's just about his hate/hurt towards his [ex] wife.
    BettyGirlon August 31, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General CommentBilly said in an interview once the song was "Ex Why You?" but thats all he said about it :(
    Ben94gton November 05, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Commentbilly corgan is legendary, and this song may be quite violent or sadistic, but he can bring across a strong, obsessive image in a gentle way without trying to do some god awful death metal screeching song. he is my hero
    kitty.on November 08, 2007   Link
  • +1
    General Commentshows anger and obsession and rage but u can tell there 's pain deep inside.
    moulin.rouge2001on September 11, 2008   Link
  • +1
    General CommentSongs can mean various, and extremely different things to individual people. In my opinion, this song is about being the nice guy, the girls friend. That always wants to be with her, but just can't. She has a new boyfriend, a real one, that he can't get out of his head. I base this on two lines that really stand out, although I could name a few more.
    "cause i'm a watcher, and i'm a doer of none"
    And
    "i couldn't feel her, and it was just a game"

    Also
    "still i was lonely, and she was by my side, my one and only"
    He hates being the friend, but will tolerate it as long as her attention is on him. Romantic acts don't matter to him at this point, as long as noone else has her.

    "i am made of shamrocks, i am made of stern stuff"
    He's green with envy, but tough and won't let it show.


    "mary had a little lamb, her face was white as snow
    and everywhere that mary went i was sure to go"
    He followed her everywhere, total devotion. But none in return.

    "from one another, no one should ever come
    in between us, between us and our love"
    He can't take the thought of her with another guy.

    "and into the eyes of the jackyl i say ka-boom"
    The "jackyl" represents the "other guy".
    Finally, he can't take it anymore and decides to end her relationship, in any way possible.

    Again, this is just my opinion, and probably not what the actual song is about.
    RalphMeatchunkon May 26, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThe title could mean Generations X and Y, are you. These are the generations listening to this song from Mellon Collie, an album advertised as the Wall for Generation X.
    Just a side note.
    NeonSloaneyon July 26, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General Commentsometimes he really does write songs about courtney
    yseulton February 11, 2010   Link

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