This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
While emotions try to come out
Desperately I seek in their path
A way so I cannot be outdone
And to finish this search for the meaning
To hide emotions cause a blow out
Desperately I seek their blast
A way so I cannot be outdone
And to finish this search for the meaning
I'm going to freeze
Is it my imagination?
It's underground
But I can feel it the same
What I need now
What I need is to live to hide
When you smothered my devotion
With your lies
And I feel now
As I did that time
That I'm wondering why
Still I make you cry
While emotions try to come out
Desperately I seek their path
A way so I cannot be outdone
And to finish this search for the meaning
To hide emotions cause to blow out
Desperately I seek their blast
A way so I cannot be outdone
And to finish this search for the meaning
Suffering while I'm depending on seasons
Roots under me are embracing the earth
Desperately I seek in their path
A way so I cannot be outdone
And to finish this search for the meaning
To hide emotions cause a blow out
Desperately I seek their blast
A way so I cannot be outdone
And to finish this search for the meaning
I'm going to freeze
Is it my imagination?
It's underground
But I can feel it the same
What I need now
What I need is to live to hide
When you smothered my devotion
With your lies
And I feel now
As I did that time
That I'm wondering why
Still I make you cry
While emotions try to come out
Desperately I seek their path
A way so I cannot be outdone
And to finish this search for the meaning
To hide emotions cause to blow out
Desperately I seek their blast
A way so I cannot be outdone
And to finish this search for the meaning
Suffering while I'm depending on seasons
Roots under me are embracing the earth
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