This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Two months of fun
Two years of pain
Add it up
And get a life of rain
Need to scream
But too ashamed
It's gonna rain it's gonna rain
You wanna go you wanna stay you wanna
You really blew my world
I wanna live and there's only one way
I don't want to die anymore
I want to live it up
I don't want this high anymore
But I can't give it up
I won't live a lie anymore
I need to give you up
Won't you save me
Two months of sun
A life of rain
Add it up
I'm on my own again
Need to scream
I'm so filled with rage
It's gonna rain it's gonna rain
You wanna go you wanna stay you wanna
You really screwed my world
I gotta live but you stand in the way
I'm pullin' out now uh
I don't wanna die anymore
I want to live it up
I don't want this high anymore
But I can't give it up
I won't live a lie anymore
I need to give you up
And oh oh baby did you think that I was strong?
Well oh oh honey can't you see that you were wrong
Oh oh baby did you think that I was strong?
Two years of pain
Add it up
And get a life of rain
Need to scream
But too ashamed
It's gonna rain it's gonna rain
You wanna go you wanna stay you wanna
You really blew my world
I wanna live and there's only one way
I don't want to die anymore
I want to live it up
I don't want this high anymore
But I can't give it up
I won't live a lie anymore
I need to give you up
Won't you save me
Two months of sun
A life of rain
Add it up
I'm on my own again
Need to scream
I'm so filled with rage
It's gonna rain it's gonna rain
You wanna go you wanna stay you wanna
You really screwed my world
I gotta live but you stand in the way
I'm pullin' out now uh
I don't wanna die anymore
I want to live it up
I don't want this high anymore
But I can't give it up
I won't live a lie anymore
I need to give you up
And oh oh baby did you think that I was strong?
Well oh oh honey can't you see that you were wrong
Oh oh baby did you think that I was strong?
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I don't think it's necessarily about sex. It's about wanting to start the day with some love and affection. Maybe a warm cuddle. I'm not alone in interpreting it that way! For example:
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maybe its me, but i think it's about giving up some sort of drug addiction, or alcoholism....
I think this is another break up song. I think he is saying that he had two months of fun (sun) with this person and now he is trying (unsuccessfully to get over it)...2 years of rain. He wants to get on with it "i gotta live, but you stand in the way", but he cannot.
the majority of people seem think this is about gregg finally getting over an addiction to something, be it drugs alcohol or a woman but i think its about him not being able to get over it and give up. he's saying he knows he should but just cant no matter what he does.
but thats just the way i see it
Yeah I'd have to agree with selfishisgorgeous. He wants to get over it and change, but he can't give it up, he doesn't feel like he is strong enough to. "I don't want this high anymore But I can't give it up"--basically he's torn. Love the song.
I think this song doesn't necessarily have to be about a drug. It could be a high that you experience from anything that might not be necessarily good for you. He is saying that he want to live but doesn't know how to give up this thing that he knows is destroying his life. I think this is something we all can relate to.
I don't know what its about but it's amazing, the tune is great
i think its about a relationship...for two months it was good, but after that it was all pain. and he's finally ready to let it go...
this song is about my life....or at least, it seems to describe exactly what's going on in my head right now. I think this song is about how something in life is really upsetting him and he feels that he can't do anything....until now, he's felt that life isn't worth living so he's been pondering death. but he remembers the rare times in life when he enjoys himself somehow, so just so he can have that small amount of happiness part of the time, he will endure the rest of his life that is painful. donno if I described it well enough, don't think I did....but anyway. that's my take on it.
The start of a relationship. Might not be very deep, but things seemed fine in the beginning. After that, the fun went away and all you're left with is pain.
This is about realizing you need to give up what you thought was working and really isn't. Eheh.. it really speaks about my own life as well.
I always assumed it was either simply heroin addiction (both the references to not wanting to die and the "pulling out now") OR a deliberately vague combination of that and a woman... it COULD be simply about a relationship, but there's too much darkness to be "just" about that.