This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I'm losing my love of adventure.
I'm losing all respect for me and myself tonight.
I wonder what happens if I get to
The end of this tunnel and there isn't a light.
I've worn down the treads on most of my tires.
I've worn down through the elbows and the knees of my clothing
And I'm striding down
The gravel drive-way of desire,
Trying not to wake up my sleeping self-loathing.
Do you ever have that dream,
When you open your mouth and you try to scream,
But you can't make a sound?
That's every day's starting now.
That's every day's starting now.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimism tonight.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimisn tonight.
It's a stiff competition to see who can stay up later:
The stars or the street lights.
All they really want is to be alone with the darkness
No more "Wish I may" no more "Wish I might".
It takes a stiff upper lip just to hold up my face
I gotta suck it up and savor the taste of my own behavior.
I am spinning with longing
Faster than a roulette wheel
This is not who I meant to be,
This is not how I meant to feel
Have you ever had that dream,
Where you open your mouth and you try to scream,
But you can't make a sound?
That's every day's starting now.
That's every day's starting now.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimism tonight.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimism tonight.
I don't think I am strong enough
To do this much longer.
God I wish I was stronger.
This song could never long enough
To express every longing.
God I wish it was longer.
I don't think I am strong enough
I don't
I don't
Think I can
I don't think I
I wish I
I
I'm losing all respect for me and myself tonight.
I wonder what happens if I get to
The end of this tunnel and there isn't a light.
I've worn down the treads on most of my tires.
I've worn down through the elbows and the knees of my clothing
And I'm striding down
The gravel drive-way of desire,
Trying not to wake up my sleeping self-loathing.
Do you ever have that dream,
When you open your mouth and you try to scream,
But you can't make a sound?
That's every day's starting now.
That's every day's starting now.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimism tonight.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimisn tonight.
It's a stiff competition to see who can stay up later:
The stars or the street lights.
All they really want is to be alone with the darkness
No more "Wish I may" no more "Wish I might".
It takes a stiff upper lip just to hold up my face
I gotta suck it up and savor the taste of my own behavior.
I am spinning with longing
Faster than a roulette wheel
This is not who I meant to be,
This is not how I meant to feel
Have you ever had that dream,
Where you open your mouth and you try to scream,
But you can't make a sound?
That's every day's starting now.
That's every day's starting now.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimism tonight.
Don't tell me it's going to be all right.
You can't sell me on your optimism tonight.
I don't think I am strong enough
To do this much longer.
God I wish I was stronger.
This song could never long enough
To express every longing.
God I wish it was longer.
I don't think I am strong enough
I don't
I don't
Think I can
I don't think I
I wish I
I
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