Done Wrong

I completely agree. for me, it mirrors the cycle of emotional abuse in a relationship with a heroin/opiate addict.<br /> <br /> "i guess that makes me the jerk with the heartache" <br /> <br />

• feeling stupid for feeling heartbroken, when you know the addict isn't even capable of feeling that way in return.. years of addiction basically destroy the addict's ability to care for anyone or anything outside of his need to score.<br /> <br /> "how could you do nothing <br /> And say, I'm doing my best"<br /> <br /> not only can he not really contribute emotionally, but to be a bit overly literal, it also sounds like the constant loss of/search for a job that never quite pans out. <br /> <br /> "How could you take almost everything<br /> And then come back for the rest"<br /> <br /> describes being used by someone else. financially, emotionally, however.. There's not an end to how much he'll take in the name of self preservation.<br /> <br /> "How could you beg me to stay<br /> Reach out your hands and plead<br /> And then pack up your eyes and run away<br /> As soon as I agreed"<br /> <br /> this is the one that really screamed addict to me and made me think about the song in this way. having been in an emotionally abusive and draining on again off again merry go round for over a year.. dramatic breakups, passionate reconciliations.. more than once, he's called me crying, begging, pleading, apologizing after we've blown up and called it quits.. "he knows he's been horrible and he really wants to change. please help him, don't abandon him, etc." Like an idiot, i've taken him back over and over again, only to arrive right back to the break up point in a week or a month... the passionate pleas are gone and its like a switch is flipped.. when he's using, he's truly dead in his eyes and seems gone. at that point, there's no affection, nothing at all. he wants me to either enable him or get the F out of his way.<br /> <br /> "I've been like one of those zombies <br /> In Vegas<br /> Pouring quarters into a slot<br /> And now I'm tired<br /> And I am broke<br /> <br /> And I feel stupid and I feel used<br /> And I'm at the end of my little rope<br /> And I am swinging back and forth<br /> About you"<br /> <br /> doing the same thing over and over, expecting a different result (insanity, right?). In my case, pretty literally, since you don't live with or love an addict without it draining you financially to some point... you see it happening, recognize manipulation, but find yourself falling for it anyway in the name of supposed love.. swinging back and forth is the cycle of breaking up and coming back together.. or the process of seeing the reality and knowing you should end it v hanging on to the fantasy of what you want it to be, what it could be, or what is has been in fleeting glimpses.<br /> <br /> ending with the questions repeated feels like the cycle starting all over again. this song is beautiful and very sad to me.