"Light of Some Kind" as written by and Ani Difranco....
i wish i didn't have this nervous laugh
i wish i didn't say half the stuff i say
i wish i could just learn to cover my tracks
i guess i'm not concerned about getting away

'cause every time i try to hold my tongue
it slips like a fish from a line
they say if you want to play
you should learn how to play dumb
i guess i can't bring myself to waste your time

'cause we both know what i've been doing
i've been intentionally bad at lying
you're the only boy i ever let see through me
and i hope you believe me when i say i'm trying
and i hope i never improve my game
yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind
and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
there must be a light of some kind
there must be a light of some kind

i must have blown a fuse or something
cause it was so dark in my mind
she came up to me with the sweetest face
and she was holding a light of some kind
and i still think of you as my boyfriend
i don't think this is the end of the world
but i think maybe you should follow my example
and go meet yourself a really nice girl

'cause we both know. . .

in the end the world comes down to just a few people
but for you it comes down to one
but no one ever asked me if i thought i could be
everything to someone
there's a crowd of people harbored in every person
there are so many roles that we play
and you've decided to love me for eternity
i'm still deciding who i want to be today

cause we both know. . .


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"Light of Some Kind" as written by Ani Difranco

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    General CommentI don't know about as a whole, but to me this song means a lot. I think it's about a relationship where you're on edge about what you say in case you hurt your partner or such, where you're not totally confident with how you feel around your partner. "'cause we both know what i've been doing
    i've been intentionally bad at lying
    you're the only boy i ever let see through me
    and i hope you believe me when i say i'm trying
    and i hope i never improve my game
    yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind " is the bit I'm talking about which has stood by me well lately, I think it's about lying to the person you love because you secretly want them to know how you feel, altho you don't know how to say so make it seem like an accident. I dunno how others see it :)
    Pekkalaon September 26, 2002   Link
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    General CommentI think this line sums it up: "but i think maybe you should follow my example
    and go meet yourself a really nice girl "
    YourBestBet18on December 23, 2004   Link
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    General CommentIt is all about Ani dealing with her bisexuality.
    YourBestBet18on December 23, 2004   Link
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    General Comment'i'm still deciding who i want to be today',sums it up really,fantastic.
    rash_decisionon April 08, 2005   Link
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    General Commentwhat I love about this song is that it's written with such raw emotion- she makes u feel with her all these really exausting feelings and thoughts that she's been having about life and love - "and i hope i never improve my game
    yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind" in a way it's a completely ridiculous thought but one that u can just totally relate to. plus it's written with so much vulnerability - she basically is critisising and hating herself for the entire 4 minutes of the song...
    L-E-7on December 09, 2005   Link
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    General CommentI love this song
    'cause we both know what i've been doing
    i've been intentionally bad at lying
    thats just an awesome line!
    Im pretty sure its about her having an affair with a girl, when shes in a relationship with some guy and they both know, but its easier for them to ignore it. I think thats it but if anyone disagrees tell me.
    Bridsaon August 31, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI think Bridsa has it right.
    "i must have blown a fuse or something
    cause it was so dark in my mind
    she came up to me with the sweetest face
    and she was holding a light of some kind
    and i still think of you as my boyfriend
    i don't think this is the end of the world
    but i think maybe you should follow my example
    and go meet yourself a really nice girl"
    She knew something was off but couldn't put her finger on it, then she meets a girl who she's attracted to and goes, "Oh, so that's the part that was missing." She doesn't seem to accept it yet because it doesn't have to be the end of the world and she still has her boyfriend. She feels guilty for having the affair and doesn't feel worthy of his complete love and devotion for her.
    She says that she's been intentionally bad at lying and hopes not to learn to be a better liar. She doesn't want to be able to cheat on someone and doesn't want to hone her cheating skills.
    " yeah i'd rather have these things weighing on my mind
    and at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame
    there must be a light of some kind"
    She'd rather feel guilty "pretend" it's not happening rather than fully confront confront her feelings. She knows that when she finally does though, that there will be some good that comes from it.
    kiegaon June 14, 2007   Link

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