Head Down

iwas_at nailed it. It's hard to see a 'happy go lucky' especially if, like so often in our time, other people have to work so hard to support them and they can be so carefree about life.(not that that's what you were sayin) I myself have staunched the happiness of a loved one who seems to live in a sort of peewees playhouse sort of mentality. I don't want to, but the world demands and the price is heavy for those who are slow to grow up into responsibility. Another side of me kicks myself and is heavily grieved/ashamed for my consultation because her stream of happiness is what brings so much life into my sometimes dreary responsibility laden reality.

I'm a 39 year old professional singer/lead guitarist. Started playing in nightclubs at age 16, smoking weed since age 9 so i know full well about how that favorite song is what sustains our happiness in a world that can seem hopeless. My advice is: choose your place in the scheme, play your role but do not make a self out of any of it. Don't make an identity out of it because it is a very confined/limited program the world offers and that includes the happiness we are emotionally attached to even in the form of the entertainment we use as an escape mechanism. Meditate, deal with your fears, be willing to feel your pain without grabbing a hold of it and making a self/ identity out of it, give to others, and always remember that you could be in their shoes, you could have been born them instead of you. Choose compassion.