Fool enough to almost be it
Cool enough to not quite see it, doomed
Pick your pocket full of sorrow
Run away with me tomorrow, June

We'll try and ease the pain
Somehow we'll feel the same
Well, no one knows
Where our secrets go

I send a heart to all my dearies
When your life is so, so dreary, dream
I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
While the harlots of my perils scream

And I fail
But when I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

Mother, weep the years I'm missing
All our time can't be given back
Shut my mouth and strike the demons
Cursed you and your reasons
Out of hand and out of season
Out of love and out of feeling so bad

When I can, I will
Words defy the plans
When I can, I will

Fool enough to almost be it
And cool enough to not quite see it
And old enough to always feel this
Always old, I'll always feel this

No more promise no more sorrow
No longer will I follow
Can anybody hear me
I just want to be me
When I can, I will
Try to understand
That when I can, I will

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Mayonaise song meanings
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  • +9
    General CommentSiamese Dream just proves how much of a musical genius Billy Corgan is. Mayonaise is my favourite song of all time. This song hits me harder than a ton of bricks. When I saw it live, it was the happiest day of my life. Full of passion, sadness, and utter genius. I miss the Pumpkins with all my heart. But soon I will forever have The Smashing Pumpkins etched upon this canvas that I call my body, but they will forever be etched upon my musical soul.
    zekey babyon May 18, 2002   Link
  • +4
    General CommentMy personal fav. I believe this is widely considered the best Pumpkins song. Why it never was made a single I will never know, but I thought it was at least 10x better than Rocket.
    Crocon May 07, 2002   Link
  • +3
    General CommentThis song is simply the best!!!!!!! It is my favorite song EVER!
    j15r15on February 18, 2002   Link
  • +3
    General CommentAlthough Billy admitted in Story-Tellers that the lyrics to Mayonaise were just "bullshit lyrics" to him when he wrote them, I think he manages to somehow subconsciously channel a feeling with this song. The music seems very wistful to me and the lyrics definately compliment that. To me, this song is the sound of adolescence. It captures the uncertainty, boredom, innocence, and dreariness of growing up. It echoes a line in Muzzle, "And I knew the emptiness of youth". That to me is what this song is all about. It's a young Billy trying to break free.
    DeathRockBoyon May 28, 2002   Link
  • +3
    General CommentThis is my favorite SP song. It's talking about young love that never bloomed. There were stolen kisses and secret glances and loving gestures, and both made each other very happy for a time, but the love never bloomed, it ended with hard feelings, and this song is expressing regret, and wishing it could have changed. Beautiful.
    Lisa18on July 05, 2002   Link
  • +2
    General CommentAbsolutely gorgeous song... the height of Billy's song and lyric writing
    SiameseDreamon December 13, 2001   Link
  • +2
    General CommentThis song always hits me right *here* oh-so perfectly. It's probably one of my favorite SP songs off of one of my favorite albums ever, and it's also on my lil' imaginary dream acoustic set list, for whenever I master the art of playing guitar and singing at the same time and finally hit the local coffeehouse :)
    girliecoreon January 26, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI got James' CD the day it came out. One of my all-time fav. CDs.
    And the guitar on Mayonaise is broken. It whistles whenever it is not played. So, that is why everytime you hear the whistle sound, there is not guitar playing. And so you know, it is a pink Fender. :)
    MayonaiseDreamon October 10, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song is very personal... I don't really care if Billy says its not. But I guess it's not that personal either, cause anyone could relate to it...

    Now, I'm not saying that all the rest of you are wrong, cause I think that everyone is entitled to their own opinions... but here's what the song means to me... It's pretty much drawn from this line right here:

    "I'm rumored to the straight and narrow
    While the harlots of my perils

    It's all about how everyone looks at Billy (or rock stars in general for the most part) and they just expect so fricken much from them, like they are total gods or something just because they are up there on stage singing to us. It's telling us that Billy is just a person too and he's dealing with all the same bullshit from the past that all of us had, have to, or at some point in our live will unfortunatly try to have to come to grips with...

    The whole verse when he talks about his mother and the years he's missing... it's all about how he wishes he could have taken back a lot of the hurtful things he said to her when he was little... but don't we all though?

    The last verse is basically a "F you" to the critics and to some of his doubting fans I think...

    No more promise no more sorrow
    No longer will I follow
    Can anybody hear me
    I just want to be me

    He's sick of having to try to explain himself... he just wants to be him, and unfrotunatly many of the critics wouldn't let the Pumpkins do what they wanted to do. When Ava Adore came out the media trashed it and said that they got away from what made the Pumpkins good... and while I don't think that Adore was quite as good as a lot of their other albums, it was still really good and if any other band would have released it the critics would have loved the "new style" that the band was brining into music.

    I don't know, I hate that the Pumpkins are gone, but I do understand why Billy did it... he was sick of having to explain himself to the bullshit media and fair weather fans. He wanted to be creative and he is showing that now with Zwan.

    On a side note... I love when Billy got on Chicago radio and unveiled "Untitled" to the world, cause in my mind that song really does symbolize everything that the Pumpkins were all about, and Billy really did get the last laugh.

    I just wish that they would play once more for all us true fans who have been with them since their more humble beginnings in Chicago...

    Although they did play their last free show... I was just pissed that I couldn't win tickets :)

    That's all I'm gonna comment on this song, obviously I think that it's one of their very best and it has a special place in my heart. If anyone disagrees with me that's cool, I just wanted to put my point of view forward...
    osubuckeye420on May 12, 2003   Link
  • +1
    General CommentFirst off, I'd like to say this is one of my favorite songs ever, and some of the most beautiful music I've ever heard. It's a wall of guitar noise, but it's gorgeous. How does that work?

    Anyway, I think it's about trying drug addiction myself. "Pick your pockets full of sorrow, and run away with me tomorrow" sounds to me like something a dealer would tell a new user (though I've never used drugs and have never had any contact with a dealer). "And I fail, but when I can, I will" says to me "I can't kick it now, but as soon as I work up the courage, I will". The "Mother weep for years I'm missing" verse starts off as remorse about addiction, but at the end of it the narrator realizes he or she can't get over their addiction. I do think the song ends on a happy note, though... the narrator realizes the drug is making him something he isn't, that he just wants to be himself and not be controlled by the drug, and plans to kick his habit. I don't know, just a few thoughts, because as we all know Corgan's lyrics are ambiguous. And always amazing, too.
    I also think the song structure represents drug use. The quiet introduction is shooting up, the loud bit is the drug screwing with your mind, and so forth.
    finulanuon December 27, 2007   Link

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