When I have nothing left to feel.
When I have nothing left to say
I'll just let this slip away.

I feel these engines power down.
I feel this heart begin to bleed
as I turn this burning page.

Please forgive me if I bleed.
Please forgive me if I breathe.
I have words I need to say.
Oh so very much to say.

And whose life do I lead?
And whose blood do I bleed?
Whose air do I breathe?
With whose skin now do I feel?

I'm supposed to walk away from here.
I'm supposed to walk away from here.

And whose life do I lead?
Whose blood do I bleed?
Whose air do I now breathe?
I'm convinced there's nothing more.

The day you died I lost my way.
The day you died I lost my mind.

What am I supposed to do?
Is there something more?

The engines power down.
Like a soldier to his end I go.
Because I'm convinced
that there is nothing more.

and whose life do I lead
and whose air do I breathe?
With whose skin and whose blood do I feel?

What happens now?
Have I done something wrong?

Forgive my need to bleed right now.
Please forgive my need to breathe
But I've so much to say
and it wouldn't matter anyway.
You're not here to hear these words that I must say
and I'm convinced inside
that there is nothing more.

Whose life do I lead?
Whose air do I breathe.
Whose blood do I now bleed?
With whose skin now do I feel?

I have nothing left to say.
I have nothing left to feel.
Am I supposed to let this go now,
let darkness come and take you away?


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    General CommentThis song has profound meaning for me, especially after losing my younger brother to tragedy a year and a half ago. I had a chance to sit with Ronan several months ago when he DJ'd in DC last and talk about this song.

    Its a song of hope, of mourning, of coping with grief and trying to convey that which people who have never been through such lose could understand.

    Its not about suicide, or despair, or depression, its about grief and coping and going on with your life even through something important has been torn out from it. Its about those words and things you'll never share with that person.

    Its feeling that pain fully, accepting it as real and accepting the reality and the futility of it, and moving on.

    I was glad to have the chance to thank Ronan for this song, it helped me cope with that loss, it made me realize that I wasn't the only person who felt that hopeless emptiness, the loss of self and void that comes with such a tragedy. And it let me know that I could move on.

    Because I could find myself again, through it all.
    ransimon September 12, 2006   Link
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    General CommentI've owned this song for quite some time. For most of that time, I had only heard the original, instrumental version. My feelings about the song were formed from that, rather than the version with lyrics.

    Listening to the instrumental version, I've always had the image of a flawed, or even "bad" person as they pass and meet that which awaits them. Imagine someone who has, in life, alienated everyone or who has even wronged many others, all the while maintaining an attitude of superiority, callousness, indifference, or even aggression & spite, and who is beginning to worry about the idea that they may not share in the bounty which awaits the good. The old man lies in a cold, sanitized room at the end of a lonely hallway in some neglected area of a hospital, and with the final flits of his eyelids springs a tear. His transporting angel arrives, and his sobs transcend the physical as he wonders whether his private pain, that which has tortured him in life despite his misanthropic, antisocial veneer, will be sufficient to gain him passage. The loving angel plants a kiss on his heavy forehead, smiling in a mixture of awe and pity. The hospital recedes into the distance, and the departed is left to eternity. His questions of whether that eternity will be one of peace or turmoil are forgotten as the sheer breath of eternity becomes apparent, and his privacies become part of the trivial.

    "For 40 years I have plotted to bring down the party; I was sick, in mind and body."
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    "If your frightened of dying, and you're holding on, you'll see devils tearing your life away. But if you've made your peace, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth."
    AmbienDaydreamon March 04, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI lost my best friend, well actually more like a brother, in april of this year and this song hits home, because he committed suicide and was an outcast. This song makes me cry when i hear it because it reminds me of all the stuff i could never say to him before he killed himself.
    drake63628on October 27, 2007   Link
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    General CommentDispair...
    BrianSladeon February 09, 2002   Link
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    General CommentHeard this in concert the first time and it blew me away!! Very powerful
    Rogersgirl93on April 15, 2002   Link
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    General Commenti love this song.it's all about how how they knew someone who diedand he's beginning to doubt everything and feels sorry for his "faults",but he still has things to say but that person's not there anymore.if you really want to know why i love this song,even tho i relly don't want to type it because it still hurts so much, it's because my bf killed himself last winter and i feel as tho it's my fault and i still hav so much i wanted to say.
    risse_des_feuerson April 15, 2002   Link
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    General Commentthere's a quote at the end of this song. "if you're frightened of dying and holding on, then you'll see devils tearing your life away. but if you've made your pease, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth". beautiful quote. taken from Jacobs Ladder. fits the song very well
    JesusKeBabon April 18, 2002   Link
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    General Commentthere's a quote at the end of this song. "if you're frightened of dying and holding on, then you'll see devils tearing your life away. but if you've made your pease, then the devils are really angels, freeing you from the earth". beautiful quote. taken from Jacobs Ladder. fits the song very well
    JesusKeBabon April 18, 2002   Link
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    General Commentthis is one of the most beautiful, powerful songs I have ever heard- I think anyone who's ever lost someone can really feel the lyrics 'the day you died i lost my way/the day you died i lost my mind'
    I think the song is about a friend who died- and he is pleading with that friend to forgive him for still being alive and living, breathing, bleeding. There are still many things he wants to tell the friend, and he realizes that without that friend in his life, he doesn't know who he is- who's life he leads. This is an incredible song
    rynlee83on April 19, 2002   Link
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    General CommentCan anyone tell me why my version has no lyrics?
    Syrinxon May 09, 2002   Link

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