"My Life In The Knife Trade" as written by and Matthew Krupanski Nathan Gray....
How many times
Have you noticed that our eyes
Hardly ever meet
From your judgment seat
I feel the anger for my very being
Fill me in
On when you became such a big part of my life
That I should bother
With all your lies designed to bring me down
Wrong again
Don't depend
On any reaction again

I remember the icy walls
That shot up from nowhere
And I can see every lie that you've ever told yourself
You bleed me dry and I don't ask why
But I'm left with the dust
Judas kiss I dismiss
Thank you all for this
I am untouched
Wait again
I'm not through with the screaming
I contend
That you've got nothing better to do

Trade my life for a barrel of gold
Find someone else before I get too old
If I live my life for aesthetic gain
Will you repay me with all your shame

I can see every light inside your brain
Go on every time that I walk by
For nods and whispers
Your comfort in my suffering
Is no longer disturbing
I'm lost beyond your petty stopwatch
In life's real time
Wait again
I'm not through with the screaming
I contend
That you've got nothing better to do

Trade my life for a barrel of gold
Find someone else before I get too old
If I live my life for aesthetic gain
Will you repay me with all your shame

Don't get up
I was slowly leaving the room
And when the door
Of your judgment
Swings back around again
Maybe I'll stop to watch
And I'll go on my way
I've seen quite enough
Of too many childish games
I'm ashamed of every moment
That I ever gave them the time of day
All the worst of enemies
Are somehow always
Friends that used to be


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"My Life in the Knife Trade" as written by Joshua Latshaw Charles W. Istvan

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    General Commentmy friend read me the lyrics to this song before i had ever heard it....it gave me goosebumbs even then, and when i listened it, i realized that it was one of the most amazing songs i've heard. no matter what the content, the perspective from where the song was written is obvious..."i can see everylight inside your brain" is actually tattood on my shoulder in a spiral , and im proud.
    EveryLighton April 01, 2003   Link
  • +1
    General Comment"all the worst of enemies are somehow always friends that used to be"

    This line rings so true with me..
    I've had so many 'friends' that turned to be thieves..backstabbers..liars.

    I love this song.
    This2x4Skeletonon November 08, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis is the most incredible, beautiful song. I was so taken away by it.
    ringoon January 27, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Commentit about betrayal of friends
    jazaron April 13, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis is so true. There really are people like this - and I know one. I gave this person so many chances...but now, I think it's too late.
    Lil_k8on April 13, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThat's strange. As I read the lyrics for the first time I was sure that its about love. But friendship also fits. Anyway... sometimes these things go hand in hand.
    Outstanding song anyway.
    agrzybon April 14, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentInitially, I thought this song was a lashing out against religion or god,. or something of that sort,. because of the Judas references,. but somehow I think this song deals with the narrator's struggle to persue music (asthetic gain) and someone like his (father?) seems to be keeping him down,. it's about breaking free from all kinds of oppression,.. that's what I think.
    Pretendhappyon April 17, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentYes, could be. But I think that "Judas" is just a symbol for betrayal in general (like Judas betrayed Jesus).
    agrzybon April 18, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti am putting these lyrics in a letter i am sending a person that i use to be best friends with.
    we dont talk at all any more.
    it hurts to tell her how i feel and this song helps so much.
    steadlydrowningon April 18, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentNow it helps. But it makes you sad again everytime you hear this song (after you're over it). But that's always the problem with really great songs.
    agrzybon April 19, 2002   Link

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