What else should I be
All apologies
What else could I say
Everyone is gay
What else could I write
I don't have the right
What else should I be
All apologies

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
I'm married
Buried

I wish I was like you
Easily amused
Find my nest of salt
Everything is my fault
I'll take all the blame
Aqua sea foam shame
Sunburn with freeze burn
Choking on the ashes of her enemy

In the sun
In the sun I feel as one
In the sun
In the sun
Married, maried, maried!
Buried!
Yeah yeah yeah yeah

All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are

All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are

All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are

All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are
All in all is all we are



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"All Apologies" as written by Kurt Cobain

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  • +11
    General Comment:Everyone comes so close to getting this song, but are off by just a bit. Firstly, yes, this is akin to a suicide note. It's position at the end of In Utero is no accident, it's Kurt's final message to the world

    "What else should I be
    All apologies"

    Most get this, this is like, what else can I be? To put it in today's terms, should I be like Pearl Jam and just make forgettable records a decade after anyone cares about them anymore, or be like U2 and criss cross between techno and saving the world?

    "What else should I say
    Everyone is gay"

    Many times Kurt wrote in an abstract and intuitive way. And other times, he was blatantly direct. This is one of those times. This line has nothing to do with being happy or whatever bullshit people are telling themselves. It means exactly what you all deep down know it means. Everyone has homoerotic feelings. Everyone. Get over it. So what else do you cretins want me to say? How about this!

    "What else could I write
    I don't have the right"

    He mentioned in his suicide note that he didn't have the right to write music if he no longer felt the passion anymore.

    "What else should I be
    All apologies

    In the sun
    In the sun I feel as one
    In the sun
    In the sun
    I'm married
    buried"

    Most people get this. The sun is the equivalent of being dead, and feel as one is being free. Married and buried? Maybe that's what comes to us all? Or maybe that's what makes you feel as one? Or perhaps both. Nirvana lyrics frequently had double meanings

    "I wish I was like you
    Easily amused
    Find my nest of salt"

    He wishes he could be like most people, and be happy with their TV's and beer and strip clubs. Or be like most celebrities, and be happy with the money, fame, drugs, and whores. He can't

    "Everything is my fault
    I'll take all the blame"

    Again, this is very direct, and means exactly what it seems. No one is responsible for Kurt's suicide besides Kurt, and no one should feel responsible. This seems like it could be sarcastic, but it's not. Sarcasm generally doesn't litter suicide notes, sincerity does (as well as self-loathing)

    "Aqua seafoam shame
    Sunburn with freezerburn
    Choking on the ashes of her enemy"

    This is a little tougher, as it's very much on the abstract side. "Aqua seafoam shame" would seem to indicate shame that goes out to the ocean like ashes. "Sunburn with freezerburn" seems to indicate something akin to a double edge sword, or between a rock and a hard place. You get burned both ways. Maybe that's how he viewed being a famous band versus being an underground band? And "choking on the ashes of her enemy" would seem to go in line with "aqua seafoam shame," meaning the ashes of the enemy of mother nature will go out to be part of it. It's a self-loathing view. It has nothing to do with Courtney Love.

    "All alone is all we are (x14)"

    I changed it to what it really says. "All in all is all we are" means absolutely nothing. "All alone is all we are" means exactly what it says. We're all alone in this world. He says it very clearly, especially at the last line when the instruments go off. Listen closely to Kurt's final message to the world if you want to know what All Apologies says
    mostly90son August 19, 2009   Link
  • +4
    General Comment:I know everyone who wrote what they think the song about is probably really smart, smarter than me, but you guys are all way too analytical. Kurt Cobain wrote this song a long time before he even met Courtney Love. And Courtney Love was doing drugs a long time before she met Kurt Cobain. It doesn't have anything to do with her. And I can see how someone could think that it was about Courtney Love, (I'm married/buried) but I really think it was a stretch to say that it was about him got her hooked onto drugs. Now that I've said that, I have to say I don't really know what the song is about. Unless Kurt told someone, he was vague to the point where no one could figure out exactly what he meant. And I'm not criticizing him for it; I think it proves his integrity just a little bit more because he didn't write an obvious song just so it would be more mainstream and people would get it. It could have been about his own negative view about marriage from childhood, since his parents got divorced when he was nine. It could be about so many things, which I think makes it a better song because more people could relate to it based on their own experiences.
    beth46307on April 20, 2002   Link
  • +3
    General Comment:the first verse...
    "What else should I be
    All apologies"
    --asking if he should not be a star because he isn't a role modle
    "What else should I say
    Everyone is gay"
    --asking if you blame him for being what we all want him to be...a rebell--for lack of a better word
    "What else could I write
    I don't have the right"
    --it isn't his job to say Courtney is hooked on drugs though he admits he is---this meaning might be off..its an interesting line..but it would fallow with my theroy.
    "What else should I be
    All apologies"
    --repeated...mainly he can't stop thinking its his fault
    and the coures..
    in the sun--his description of being high..sun..later he says Courtney is sunburned...(now you see my point)
    in the sun i feel as one--when he is high he feels whole.
    just my theroy..
    dellslaveon April 04, 2002   Link
  • +3
    General Comment:LETS THINK ABOUT THIS FOR A SECOND. IF YOU DONT KNOW WHAT A SONG MEANS, WHY DO YOU WASTE SPACE JUST TO SAY..."I DONT KNOW WHAT THIS SONG MEANS" ...GIVE ME A BREAK!! :)
    butterfly_screamson May 28, 2002   Link
  • +2
    General Comment:uuummmm for the record... this song is brillant!
    hehe
    ks7702on May 23, 2002   Link
  • +2
    General Comment:This song is a song that should mean whatever you want it to mean. It could have so many meanings. To me though, it's saying alot. each line has new meaning to me. but i can relate to it the most when i'm feeling trapped, like no one likes me, when i have no idea what to write, when i feel like everyones blaming me for something that's not my fault. when i just want to crawl into a hole and never come out. when i'm feeling alone. but all in all, i think it's one of the greatest songs ever written.
    Glynison June 21, 2002   Link
  • +2
    My Interpretation:'In utero' was front loaded with all the 'tunes' and descends into a dissonant squall towards the end (which I love).

    It was a deliberate attempt to alienate the very people that had bought their records and put them where they were. The Album finishes with 'All apologies'. Basically a sarcastic retort to all the mugs who liked them for their 'pretty songs' and had bought this album, scratching their heads going WTF?!

    It's like he's saying 'Not what you expected? Nevermind II? Sorry guys.....' with a wry grin on his face.

    PS I think 'In Utero' is head and shoulders above 'Nevermind'
    nickster007on November 19, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General Comment:I think Beth is right. COurtney did a whole of a lot of drugs before she met kurt. She dated Billy before and they probably did drugs... she always dated celebrities so she could boost her own career. Anyways... I think i read somewhere that Kurt wrote it before he met Courtney but maybe he didnt.. Anyways if it was about her its probably more about Francis Bean.. he was so sick of Courtney.. before he died (OR WAS KILLED) he was going to divorce her.
    confusedone87on May 25, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General Comment:I'm not sure about the second verse, but I believe the first verse is describing how he has no effect on anything. There is nothing he can do to make a difference.

    ~What else should I be
    All apologies~ He's sorry he didn't grow up to be perfect.
    ~What else should I say
    Everyone is gay~ Everyone is happy, theres nothing left for him to say.
    Kegfloateron June 17, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General Comment:For the last line, I all ways thought he was saying all we know is all we are.
    Flareeon May 26, 2009   Link

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