This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I heard they found a way to no set place
That they're way ahead and winning but there's no real race
And they're feeding on the thrill of a chase
When they'll never find a way to keep the pace
I heard they found a way to build our dreams
Can they engineer a world in which we hear no screams
And I heard that they can make vaccines
But our sick routine isn't keen to relieve
I heard they found a way to see through walls
Do they have the sight to see my scars
And can they find a way to view who we are
Or does such vision just exist in the far
And can incisions ever fix all the vying that persists
Can a needle cure the evil through the arm
I'm told they have the means to travel to the stars
But can't journey to the start of the savage in our hearts
So if I'm ravaged and afraid
Damaged and apart, tired of charades
How can I clear the smoke that billows
Wade through to cope and chisel out a life that's worthy and of praise
My whole life's passing me by
As I sit and wonder why
I'll find a way
They say tomorrow brings a brighter day
But do they know about the sorrow that's beyond the fray
Do they see all of the madness that man obeys
And can they understand that sadness won't go away
But it's okay 'cause the truth is I'm feeling whole
Feeling like the emptiness inside has found a home
And I'm hopeful that my destiny is one of heights
One in which the apathy in me no longer strikes
And I wonder how this ending has come to pass
When just yesterday was carefree and full of laughs
But if there's certainty in anything it's what we have
Is but impermanent 'cause no thing will always last
Yet still I can't help but question fate
Can't shake the feeling that I hold the key to great escape
And I feel in me a yearning that still endures
A spirit wandering and eager now to find a cure
Believe me this is pure essence
Pure intention
It goes beyond mere conversation and confession
It's much too vague to formulate into expression
But perhaps there's something greater that we've all been set in
And this is not to say I know the way
This is not to say attachment's been put away
This is not to say my love for you's been held at bay
And I don't possess or know a simple route to change
But it is to say I hold you close
And it is to say the love in me is more than most
And it is to say your absence has left it's mark
But I tell myself this plays within a bigger part
Now you are not the only way to make me whole
Know that I won't ever turn my heart to stone
You are not the only way to make me whole
And I won't ever turn my heart to stone
And I'll find a way
I'll find a way
I'm not without a spirit that can hold up to the torture
Not without a will to stop the cycle that marauders
Not without a mind to free the hate within my border
And to cleanse the vessel into which my consciousness is ordered
I'm not afraid of monsters that intimidate and taunt ya
Not afraid to challenge all the violence and slaughter
The leviathans that haunt are hardly deadly out of water
I'll find a way to offer the elixir of disorder
So many trails have crossed the rivers forged from all our tears
So many paths have left us all alone during these years
So many that we've lost but I can feel their presence near
I can see a road ahead that leads beyond the known frontier
So lift yourself up slowly and rest your eyes upon me
And let the sad and lonely float away and disappear
And leave the guilt and shame and all the anger and the fear
Lets trade it for the will to find a way to persevere
My whole life's passing me by
As I sit and wonder why
I'll find a way
How long can I surrender for
How deep can my descending bore
How long can I neglect me for
How long is this confinement for
How long can I arrest me for
How long can I detain me for
How long before I stray off course
How long before all hope is lost
How long can one survive among the horror
Live among the demons that all seethe in darkened corners
Cling to all the grief released in tidal waves upon ya
Proclaim it isn't fair, content to bear forever mourner
This moment is in order
Now let the waters pass
Let the smoldered ash remain beside the olden past
Leave it on behalf of those who crave to hear you laugh
And walk among the living as you find a way to last
How long can I survive this for
How long can I abate this for
How long can I remain this strong
Well how long can I just sing this song
I'll find a way
I'll find a way
I'll find a way
I'll find a way
That they're way ahead and winning but there's no real race
And they're feeding on the thrill of a chase
When they'll never find a way to keep the pace
I heard they found a way to build our dreams
Can they engineer a world in which we hear no screams
And I heard that they can make vaccines
But our sick routine isn't keen to relieve
I heard they found a way to see through walls
Do they have the sight to see my scars
And can they find a way to view who we are
Or does such vision just exist in the far
And can incisions ever fix all the vying that persists
Can a needle cure the evil through the arm
I'm told they have the means to travel to the stars
But can't journey to the start of the savage in our hearts
So if I'm ravaged and afraid
Damaged and apart, tired of charades
How can I clear the smoke that billows
Wade through to cope and chisel out a life that's worthy and of praise
My whole life's passing me by
As I sit and wonder why
I'll find a way
They say tomorrow brings a brighter day
But do they know about the sorrow that's beyond the fray
Do they see all of the madness that man obeys
And can they understand that sadness won't go away
But it's okay 'cause the truth is I'm feeling whole
Feeling like the emptiness inside has found a home
And I'm hopeful that my destiny is one of heights
One in which the apathy in me no longer strikes
And I wonder how this ending has come to pass
When just yesterday was carefree and full of laughs
But if there's certainty in anything it's what we have
Is but impermanent 'cause no thing will always last
Yet still I can't help but question fate
Can't shake the feeling that I hold the key to great escape
And I feel in me a yearning that still endures
A spirit wandering and eager now to find a cure
Believe me this is pure essence
Pure intention
It goes beyond mere conversation and confession
It's much too vague to formulate into expression
But perhaps there's something greater that we've all been set in
And this is not to say I know the way
This is not to say attachment's been put away
This is not to say my love for you's been held at bay
And I don't possess or know a simple route to change
But it is to say I hold you close
And it is to say the love in me is more than most
And it is to say your absence has left it's mark
But I tell myself this plays within a bigger part
Now you are not the only way to make me whole
Know that I won't ever turn my heart to stone
You are not the only way to make me whole
And I won't ever turn my heart to stone
And I'll find a way
I'll find a way
I'm not without a spirit that can hold up to the torture
Not without a will to stop the cycle that marauders
Not without a mind to free the hate within my border
And to cleanse the vessel into which my consciousness is ordered
I'm not afraid of monsters that intimidate and taunt ya
Not afraid to challenge all the violence and slaughter
The leviathans that haunt are hardly deadly out of water
I'll find a way to offer the elixir of disorder
So many trails have crossed the rivers forged from all our tears
So many paths have left us all alone during these years
So many that we've lost but I can feel their presence near
I can see a road ahead that leads beyond the known frontier
So lift yourself up slowly and rest your eyes upon me
And let the sad and lonely float away and disappear
And leave the guilt and shame and all the anger and the fear
Lets trade it for the will to find a way to persevere
My whole life's passing me by
As I sit and wonder why
I'll find a way
How long can I surrender for
How deep can my descending bore
How long can I neglect me for
How long is this confinement for
How long can I arrest me for
How long can I detain me for
How long before I stray off course
How long before all hope is lost
How long can one survive among the horror
Live among the demons that all seethe in darkened corners
Cling to all the grief released in tidal waves upon ya
Proclaim it isn't fair, content to bear forever mourner
This moment is in order
Now let the waters pass
Let the smoldered ash remain beside the olden past
Leave it on behalf of those who crave to hear you laugh
And walk among the living as you find a way to last
How long can I survive this for
How long can I abate this for
How long can I remain this strong
Well how long can I just sing this song
I'll find a way
I'll find a way
I'll find a way
I'll find a way
I'll Find A Way Lyrics as written by Zack Hemsey
Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid
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