This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Convert discretion, in the hotel room
Ain't it always the same
Another gig now, got an achin' head
And I'm back on display
Ain't no thing though, all the fans agree, we killed it tonight
Back at the hotel, watching CNN, still scared for my life
So where is the party going on?
It's no fair to make me stay alone
Down in the lobby there's a couple left
Have them buy me a round
I'm your best friend I'm your superstar
Yeah I'm down with the brown
We in the bathroom let's be super cool
You gotta a little bit left
What a special thing, I'm your trophy boy
Get the fuck out my face
You will go home satisfied
I'll be blacked out for the night
In the morning I can't remember, I can't remember a thing
I'm on the bus now
They won't look at me, man it's always the same
I'm broken, why can't you see?
Can't you give me your hand?
No, I'm the bad guy, don't appreciate, can't you see who I am?
I'm on my last leg, I can't see
I wasn't trying to blow your fantasy
Another chance now, I'm on the stage again
But this time I don't fly
You all just left me, just walked away. Alone up there to die.
It was the next day got a couple calls making sure I'm alive
Man you gotta end this, just walk away Your money or your life.
So save your judgments for someone else
And be grateful I saved me from myself
Fuck you all I've got a reason to live
And I'm never gonna die
Fuck you all, I've got a reason to live
And I'm never gonna die
Fuck you all, I've got a reason to live
And I'm never gonna die
Fuck you all, I've got a reason to live
And I'm never gonna die
Ain't it always the same
Another gig now, got an achin' head
And I'm back on display
Ain't no thing though, all the fans agree, we killed it tonight
Back at the hotel, watching CNN, still scared for my life
So where is the party going on?
It's no fair to make me stay alone
Down in the lobby there's a couple left
Have them buy me a round
I'm your best friend I'm your superstar
Yeah I'm down with the brown
We in the bathroom let's be super cool
You gotta a little bit left
What a special thing, I'm your trophy boy
Get the fuck out my face
You will go home satisfied
I'll be blacked out for the night
In the morning I can't remember, I can't remember a thing
I'm on the bus now
They won't look at me, man it's always the same
I'm broken, why can't you see?
Can't you give me your hand?
No, I'm the bad guy, don't appreciate, can't you see who I am?
I'm on my last leg, I can't see
I wasn't trying to blow your fantasy
Another chance now, I'm on the stage again
But this time I don't fly
You all just left me, just walked away. Alone up there to die.
It was the next day got a couple calls making sure I'm alive
Man you gotta end this, just walk away Your money or your life.
So save your judgments for someone else
And be grateful I saved me from myself
Fuck you all I've got a reason to live
And I'm never gonna die
Fuck you all, I've got a reason to live
And I'm never gonna die
Fuck you all, I've got a reason to live
And I'm never gonna die
Fuck you all, I've got a reason to live
And I'm never gonna die
Lyrics submitted by Deka7X9
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