This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
It started off when I was five riding on my bike
To shooting BB gun bullets at kids I don’t like
Then we laughed it off, never did I have it all
I would be an act from crazy little things I saw
When I went to school, Mom would stay by the phone
Just in case the principal decides to send me home
I always thought everything would change
Sold out shows, people screaming my name
But then again, the streets made me
Law here to blame me
Yes, oh Lord, why don’t you just take me
Off these streets ‘cause I’m tired of running from the police
Don’t you wanna see?
Don’t you wanna be?
Street life got me running from the police
It went from hanging with the stars to me running from the law
This is jut who we are
OG, OC, running from the police
I ain’t trying to do it big, I’m trying to do it obese
Oh boy, from the hood, you can call him O Shay
Okay, real life, shit, this ain’t no role play
Ain’t no Hollywood, real Niggas probably would
Set you up, put you down, make you king, take your crown
Living life, yes I know, ghetto got me on the go
So I’m staying on my grind ‘cause tomorrow might not show
Been through some shit, ya’ll wouldn’t understand
Doing good now, but wouldn’t take half a grand
Wouldn’t let the hand in, ain’t no silver spoons
Only silver bullets aimed with the extra zoom
Ugh, they got me aimed on that extra zoom
So I keep them mad to plan on the extra room
Take the way like what they say
‘Cause that’s the life of the streets, yeah
Don’t you wanna see?
Don’t you wanna be?
Street life got me running from the police
It went from hanging with the stars to me running from the law
This is jut who we are
Don’t you wanna see?
Don’t you wanna be?
Street life got me running from the police
It went from hanging with the stars to me running from the law
This is jut who we are
See the light, that’s the truth, all you actors play the role
Drop them cards, play it right, swallow pride and never fold
I had no choice but to face the fact that my father’s gone
Should I cry or man up, proud to be my mother’s son
Got a case and went to jail, under pressure, didn’t tell
The Truth, under oath, my heart is gold, I live by code
Came alone, I leave alone, main line, walk the yard
Now I’m home, still grinding, clock winding, going hard
Same hood, same friends, so fly like Jordan 10s
Won’t change, born and raised, training from a black Benz
Poppa’s trying to forget it all, trying not to trip and fall
Grabbed my girl, walked them off, faced the fact I want it all
Count me in, I’m all in, product of the environment
Think you hot, think you not, turn you out like firemen
From zero, the hero, right and don’t call me out
Party on, that’s my town, Nine Lives, it’s going down
Don’t you wanna see?
Don’t you wanna be?
Street life got me running from the police
It went from hanging with the stars to me running from the law
This is jut who we are
Don’t you wanna see?
Don’t you wanna be?
Street life got me running from the police
It went from hanging with the stars to me running from the law
This is jut who we are
To shooting BB gun bullets at kids I don’t like
Then we laughed it off, never did I have it all
I would be an act from crazy little things I saw
When I went to school, Mom would stay by the phone
Just in case the principal decides to send me home
I always thought everything would change
Sold out shows, people screaming my name
But then again, the streets made me
Law here to blame me
Yes, oh Lord, why don’t you just take me
Off these streets ‘cause I’m tired of running from the police
Don’t you wanna see?
Don’t you wanna be?
Street life got me running from the police
It went from hanging with the stars to me running from the law
This is jut who we are
OG, OC, running from the police
I ain’t trying to do it big, I’m trying to do it obese
Oh boy, from the hood, you can call him O Shay
Okay, real life, shit, this ain’t no role play
Ain’t no Hollywood, real Niggas probably would
Set you up, put you down, make you king, take your crown
Living life, yes I know, ghetto got me on the go
So I’m staying on my grind ‘cause tomorrow might not show
Been through some shit, ya’ll wouldn’t understand
Doing good now, but wouldn’t take half a grand
Wouldn’t let the hand in, ain’t no silver spoons
Only silver bullets aimed with the extra zoom
Ugh, they got me aimed on that extra zoom
So I keep them mad to plan on the extra room
Take the way like what they say
‘Cause that’s the life of the streets, yeah
Don’t you wanna see?
Don’t you wanna be?
Street life got me running from the police
It went from hanging with the stars to me running from the law
This is jut who we are
Don’t you wanna see?
Don’t you wanna be?
Street life got me running from the police
It went from hanging with the stars to me running from the law
This is jut who we are
See the light, that’s the truth, all you actors play the role
Drop them cards, play it right, swallow pride and never fold
I had no choice but to face the fact that my father’s gone
Should I cry or man up, proud to be my mother’s son
Got a case and went to jail, under pressure, didn’t tell
The Truth, under oath, my heart is gold, I live by code
Came alone, I leave alone, main line, walk the yard
Now I’m home, still grinding, clock winding, going hard
Same hood, same friends, so fly like Jordan 10s
Won’t change, born and raised, training from a black Benz
Poppa’s trying to forget it all, trying not to trip and fall
Grabbed my girl, walked them off, faced the fact I want it all
Count me in, I’m all in, product of the environment
Think you hot, think you not, turn you out like firemen
From zero, the hero, right and don’t call me out
Party on, that’s my town, Nine Lives, it’s going down
Don’t you wanna see?
Don’t you wanna be?
Street life got me running from the police
It went from hanging with the stars to me running from the law
This is jut who we are
Don’t you wanna see?
Don’t you wanna be?
Street life got me running from the police
It went from hanging with the stars to me running from the law
This is jut who we are
Lyrics submitted by MusicFREAK20
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