This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Reach in for it, your rusted, iron-covered cross
Pour out your breath into the furnace again
I think I've found a better way to live
I think I've found a better way to die
And I've been fitting myself into that small, small space
That you've set out for the screaming of the wind
'cause that is all I've ever been
Sorting through this, I never saw something so clear
As your hands bound up in prayer behind a closed door
I thought I walked a better road alone
'til I felt my feet turned into stone
And that's when I turned back
You put me back in my place
But I won't be afraid
And I won't be afraid
And I've been fitting myself into that small, small space
That you've set out for the screaming of the wind
'cause that is all I've ever been
Captain wake up, your bones are tired from this trip
Don't pray too hard when you are lying in your bed
I think I found a better way to live
I think I found a better way to die
Pour out your breath into the furnace again
I think I've found a better way to live
I think I've found a better way to die
And I've been fitting myself into that small, small space
That you've set out for the screaming of the wind
'cause that is all I've ever been
Sorting through this, I never saw something so clear
As your hands bound up in prayer behind a closed door
I thought I walked a better road alone
'til I felt my feet turned into stone
And that's when I turned back
You put me back in my place
But I won't be afraid
And I won't be afraid
And I've been fitting myself into that small, small space
That you've set out for the screaming of the wind
'cause that is all I've ever been
Captain wake up, your bones are tired from this trip
Don't pray too hard when you are lying in your bed
I think I found a better way to live
I think I found a better way to die
Lyrics submitted by SephNite
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