The truth runs wild
Like a tear down a cheek
Trying to save face, and daddy heart break
I'm lying through my teeth

This voice inside
Has been eating at me
Trying to replace the love that I fake
With what we both need

The truth runs wild
Like kids on concrete
Trying to sedate, my mind in it's cage
And numb what I see

Awake, wide eyed
I'm screaming at me
Trying to keep faith and picture his face
Staring up at me

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

[Betty Who:]
The truth runs wild
Like the rain to the sea
Trying to set straight the lines that I trace
To find some relief
This voice inside
Has been eating at me

Trying to embrace the picture I paint
And colour me free

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen
So I'm counting to fifteen
Counting to fifteen, counting to fifteen

Without losing a piece of me
How do I get to heaven?
Without changing a part of me
How do I get to heaven?
All my time is wasted
Feeling like my heart's mistaken, oh
So if I'm losing a piece of me
Maybe I don't want heaven?

The truth runs wild
Like a tear down a cheek


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    General Comment

    He's singing about the struggles of being LGBT and wanting to be accepted by God. He sometimes feel like his heart is 'mistaken' and wonders how can he still go to Heaven without changing who he is

    GoddessofLoveon June 07, 2016   Link
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    Song Meaning

    This song deals with the internal identity struggle of LGBTQ+ people. Society, for a long time, has preached that gay people are sinners and that homosexuality is wrong. Internalized homophobia is a thing that most gay people deal with. It's not wanting to turn your back on your beliefs or roots, but not wanting to or even being able to change yourself fundamentally.

    In addition to this, 'Heaven' can have more than one meaning. Heaven is a perfect place. Traditionally, this perfect place is somewhere humans can go after they die, so long as they either are not sinners or have atoned for any sins they may have committed. The alternative is hell. However, a "perfect place" can be defined differently. Perhaps, in this song, being with the one you truly love is Heaven.

    In a roundabout way, Troye does a really amazing job of portraying the struggle between what you have been taught and how you truly feel. What is Heaven to you? And if you have to sacrifice an essential piece of yourself in order to reach it, is it worth it?

    lourologyon November 30, 2017   Link
  • +1
    Song Fact

    Troye himself confirmed that the line 'counting to 15' is a double reference. Troye was 15 when he came out for the first time. He also counts to 15 when he feels anxious as a coping method.

    lourologyon November 30, 2017   Link
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    the music video is so incredibly powerful, i recommend it to everyone. it gives me chills. youtube.com/watch

    lourologyon November 30, 2017   Link
  • 0
    My Interpretation

    As lourology said this song is open to more interpretation than just the struggle of being from the LGBT community. To me this song is about not choosing something at the expense of your own well being and true self, would it matter if you were "normal"/ unnoticeable/ part of heaven etc. if you had to shut a part of yourself?

    Madlymeon February 13, 2019   Link

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