This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
As far as I know, my ears and eyes work
I've heard thunder; I've seen people twerk
But I can never know if anything is real
Even if I eat it for a meal
Is all of this only inside my mind?
The answer to that question, I will never find
But I'm okay with not knowing anything
I just enjoy the ride and try to sing
I'll stick out my hands if you throw me a ball
But I don't know for sure if the ball is real
Even though its texture is something I appear to feel
I think about YOU often, even though you may be an illusion
I live as if you're real, even though this could all be a delusion
I wonder if you only exist in my brain
If so, I'm grateful for my brain
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
If my brain created you
That's the best thing it will ever do
You make my time on Earth less gray
You bring light into my days
Do I know what love is? I don't know
I just know I find you prettier than a rainbow
Your loveliness rings all my bells
Even if you only live in my brain cells
If you take a picture, I'll have a look
I'll read every page if you write a book
I'll listen if ya sing a song
We can work out together to help us stay strong
Even though you may only exist inside my brain
I'll take your hand if ya want to dance with me in the rain
I wonder if you only exist in my brain
If so, I'm grateful for my brain
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
I am kind to all animals
I wonder if the animals are real
I wonder if they think and feel, like I appear to think and feel
I don't think it's crazy to question everything
Is a new universe created every time a butterfly flaps her wings?
Knowing that you don't know anything can help you to stay humble
I do not live in fear that my sanity will crumble
I just enjoy the ride I'm on and hope for the best
In this universe I try to be a gracious guest
I've heard thunder; I've seen people twerk
But I can never know if anything is real
Even if I eat it for a meal
Is all of this only inside my mind?
The answer to that question, I will never find
But I'm okay with not knowing anything
I just enjoy the ride and try to sing
I'll stick out my hands if you throw me a ball
But I don't know for sure if the ball is real
Even though its texture is something I appear to feel
I think about YOU often, even though you may be an illusion
I live as if you're real, even though this could all be a delusion
I wonder if you only exist in my brain
If so, I'm grateful for my brain
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
If my brain created you
That's the best thing it will ever do
You make my time on Earth less gray
You bring light into my days
Do I know what love is? I don't know
I just know I find you prettier than a rainbow
Your loveliness rings all my bells
Even if you only live in my brain cells
If you take a picture, I'll have a look
I'll read every page if you write a book
I'll listen if ya sing a song
We can work out together to help us stay strong
Even though you may only exist inside my brain
I'll take your hand if ya want to dance with me in the rain
I wonder if you only exist in my brain
If so, I'm grateful for my brain
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
Nowhere else I'd rather be than in my brain, just you and me
I am kind to all animals
I wonder if the animals are real
I wonder if they think and feel, like I appear to think and feel
I don't think it's crazy to question everything
Is a new universe created every time a butterfly flaps her wings?
Knowing that you don't know anything can help you to stay humble
I do not live in fear that my sanity will crumble
I just enjoy the ride I'm on and hope for the best
In this universe I try to be a gracious guest
Lyrics submitted by Eamon
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