This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
[00:00]
Nicholson finds his way to the mouth of a cave. He doesn't hesitate to enter the cave because there's something oddly welcoming about it. He grabs the lantern out of his pack and lights the wick. The smell of the burning oil sparks memory after memory as the light gently flickers on the cave walls. As he journeys farther inward he realizes that there is no clear exit. There's nothing but darkness ahead. Again, though, he feels welcomed rather than afraid. He continues his journey.
[01:06]
He sees some fluttering out of the corner of his eye and sees something quite unbelievable. It looks like a butterfly, but it's somewhat luminescent. Its flight path is undirected and random, but Nicholson finds great contentment in this; the creature is
simply living.
[01:38]
He finds his way back to the path. As he continues he can hear the reverberation of his footsteps on the walls almost as if there's someone behind him. Nicholson speeds up with the feeling in his chest that someone could be following his steps. His face heats with the added adrenaline as the excitement guides his path.
[02:05]
He briefly hears a stream and walks towards the sounds. He stumbles a bit as he approaches. Finally, he raises his lantern to see fish swimming in the stream. The fish have the same luminescent quality of the butterfly. Nicholson's walk becomes more
intentional as he follows the stream. There's something up ahead.
[03:12]
As he rounds a corner his jaw drops in awe. His small lantern reflects on all of the ice formations in the cave. His tiny lantern is now casting light that dances on all of the walls of this huge cavern. He sees his reflection all and feels invigorated with a sense of partnership with the shadows. The towering stalagmites seem to sway and dance in the light as Nicholson passes by them.
[03:43]
His joy overtakes him and he lets out a yell that echoes throughout the cavern.
[04:06]
He continues to walk through the cavern until it comes to an end.
[04:42]
He follows the stream to find an exit to the cave as the insects sing around him. There are still luminescent creatures all around, dancing in the distance as Nicholson walks down the path. He hurries as the darkness deepens, but he's content with his progress and settles for the night.
[05:57]
Nicholson finds his way to the mouth of a cave. He doesn't hesitate to enter the cave because there's something oddly welcoming about it. He grabs the lantern out of his pack and lights the wick. The smell of the burning oil sparks memory after memory as the light gently flickers on the cave walls. As he journeys farther inward he realizes that there is no clear exit. There's nothing but darkness ahead. Again, though, he feels welcomed rather than afraid. He continues his journey.
[01:06]
He sees some fluttering out of the corner of his eye and sees something quite unbelievable. It looks like a butterfly, but it's somewhat luminescent. Its flight path is undirected and random, but Nicholson finds great contentment in this; the creature is
simply living.
[01:38]
He finds his way back to the path. As he continues he can hear the reverberation of his footsteps on the walls almost as if there's someone behind him. Nicholson speeds up with the feeling in his chest that someone could be following his steps. His face heats with the added adrenaline as the excitement guides his path.
[02:05]
He briefly hears a stream and walks towards the sounds. He stumbles a bit as he approaches. Finally, he raises his lantern to see fish swimming in the stream. The fish have the same luminescent quality of the butterfly. Nicholson's walk becomes more
intentional as he follows the stream. There's something up ahead.
[03:12]
As he rounds a corner his jaw drops in awe. His small lantern reflects on all of the ice formations in the cave. His tiny lantern is now casting light that dances on all of the walls of this huge cavern. He sees his reflection all and feels invigorated with a sense of partnership with the shadows. The towering stalagmites seem to sway and dance in the light as Nicholson passes by them.
[03:43]
His joy overtakes him and he lets out a yell that echoes throughout the cavern.
[04:06]
He continues to walk through the cavern until it comes to an end.
[04:42]
He follows the stream to find an exit to the cave as the insects sing around him. There are still luminescent creatures all around, dancing in the distance as Nicholson walks down the path. He hurries as the darkness deepens, but he's content with his progress and settles for the night.
[05:57]
Lyrics submitted by Octavarium64
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