Broke my bong on purpose
Hit the ceiling with weed
That summer benzo blackouts
Erased my identity
At Vintage Vinyl to pick up some CDs
For ripping rails not listening
This is starting to scare me
Three perfect chords get me closer to heaven
Been Mapping The Abyss Since 2007
Here I am again at Ben's myspace grave
And then out of nowhere
The smell of his basement
Where we watched Faces of Death
And we regretted it
Imagining victory
Our alternate history
The songs we never wrote
They float above and below me
Keepsake tinnitus shrieks me to sleep
Each frequency's a memory of some
Show we attended
Fuck your learner's permit
Drive down to Philly with me
To see the Wrens in a rec room
Out in the street where out heat turns to steam
And every surface is mercury glass
Wanna wake to listen to records
But those old feelings elude me
I wanna toast to the rock n' roll ghost
But it ain't whiskey
It's Emergen-C
Almost died a thousand times
High is just a tingling behind my eyes
Got no serotonin left
Signed away your right to be forgotten
Almost died a thousand times
High is just a tingling behind my eyes
Got no serotonin left
Signed away your right to be forgotten


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    This is my favorite song off of the album

    This song is all about missing a friend who died of an overdose. Every time the narrator is high (which is as normal as breathing, as he says "high is just a feeling behind my eyes" to insinuate its nomality) he has memories and flashbacks of driving high or watching a scary movie or the smell of his friend's basement.

    The narrator often visits not only his friend's memories that they shared; he visits.his Myspace "Grave"

    Overall, the music that Joseph, our narrator and singer loves, unavoidably summons memories of a dead friend on which Joseph is on the same path.

    BalloonManon October 16, 2014   Link

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