This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Wide eyed
Laying awake at night listening to the careful fights
Listening to my heart beat like I'm in a fight
Something's not right and I'm thinking
You can't say no if you don't know
And he can't hurt you if you don't know
And you can't say no if you don't know
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
So she's an old girl think about another
Just look around there's someone out there
Don't even see me cause I'm undercover
I'll be, I'll be, I'll be somebody watching over you
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
See the light but my life is on hold
Last night
I made a deal inside making sure I get fine
Making sure I keep that light in my sight
Holding me tight
And I'm thinking
You can't say no if you don't know
And he can't hurt you if you don't know
And you can't say no if you don't know
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
So she's an old girl think about another
Just look around there's someone out there
Don't even see me cause I'm undercover
I'll be, I'll be, I'll be somebody watching over you
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
See the light but my life is on hold
Staying undercover
Till you find me
Undercover now
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
So she's an old girl think about another
Just look around there's someone out there
Don't even see me cause I'm undercover
I'll be, I'll be, I'll be somebody watching over you
So she's an old girl think about another
Just look around there's someone out there
Don't even see me cause I'm undercover
I'll be, I'll be, I'll be somebody watching over you
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
See the light but my life is on hold
Laying awake at night listening to the careful fights
Listening to my heart beat like I'm in a fight
Something's not right and I'm thinking
You can't say no if you don't know
And he can't hurt you if you don't know
And you can't say no if you don't know
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
So she's an old girl think about another
Just look around there's someone out there
Don't even see me cause I'm undercover
I'll be, I'll be, I'll be somebody watching over you
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
See the light but my life is on hold
Last night
I made a deal inside making sure I get fine
Making sure I keep that light in my sight
Holding me tight
And I'm thinking
You can't say no if you don't know
And he can't hurt you if you don't know
And you can't say no if you don't know
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
So she's an old girl think about another
Just look around there's someone out there
Don't even see me cause I'm undercover
I'll be, I'll be, I'll be somebody watching over you
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
See the light but my life is on hold
Staying undercover
Till you find me
Undercover now
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
And I'll be the, be the, be the one
So she's an old girl think about another
Just look around there's someone out there
Don't even see me cause I'm undercover
I'll be, I'll be, I'll be somebody watching over you
So she's an old girl think about another
Just look around there's someone out there
Don't even see me cause I'm undercover
I'll be, I'll be, I'll be somebody watching over you
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
I'm not gonna go there
See the light but my life is on hold
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The way I interpret it, the singer is really into this guy, but too afraid to come out and say it ("Staying undercover / till you find me") even as he is getting into other girls. Perhaps the song has a slightly creepier tone; the singer repeats the phrases "watching over you" and "I'll be the one" perhaps once too often to not consider it. I'd love to hear some other interpretations. The lines "You can't say no if you don't know / and he can't hurt you if you don't know" really stand out to me.