Why
do I feel like I'm almost home?
I didn't want
to ever let you down

Once
we could talk about anything.
Start anew then out
out of my reach

You're out of my reach

And I never felt so
alone like that before
And I waited for you to call
and tell me to be strong

But you got so cold
Bold enough to turn to my turning face
And every time
Every time you look at me that way
I couldn't speak.
Couldn't say
anything.

I watch leaves change in the fall
I didn't notice this before
But you walked away
When I wanted you there
Come along and take me up
Maybe we could try again
Cause there were still things I wanted to say
But I was so young
I was too afraid that nothing could be saved



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    Why do I feel like I'm almost home? I didn't want to ever let you down

    > I feel regret. I feel like I was so close to happiness. I tried so hard to make you happy. I'm not sure where I fell short. I wanted you and happiness so much.

    Once we could talk about anything. Start anew then out out of my reach You're out of my reach

    > We had such a good thing. We tried something new. It went on for a while, but it didn't work out. Now, it's too late. I still want it to work. I don't know if you do...?

    And I never felt so alone like that before And I waited for you to call and tell me to be strong

    > I spent so much time yearning. Waiting. Wanting to talk to you. For you to want to talk to me. But you don't seem to want me. I needed you support.

    But you got so cold Bold enough to turn to my turning face And every time Every time you look at me that way I couldn't speak. Couldn't say anything.

    > When we did talk, you looked at me in a way I couldn't handle. You saw through me, saw things you resented or things you originally appreciated but then started to hate. You always seem far-away and distant. I didn't know what to say when we were together. I didn't want to piss you off and I didn't want to scare you. I miss you. I sometimes hate you for doing this to me. For ghosting me. I feel so many things. You feel so many things. Our looks, feelings - they're overwhelming.

    I watch leaves change in the fall I didn't notice this before

    > I'm watching the end of something (Autumn marks the end of a year). That something is our relationship. But it also means there could be renewal later. But it doesn't feel like that right now. Why was I so blind to what was broken between us? Why didn't I see what was right in front of me? The changes? The distancing?

    But you walked away When I wanted you there

    > I needed you, but you had already decided you were far away. Maybe you were distancing yourself from me BECAUSE I needed you. Maybe you felt that was too much. Maybe it was too much commitment or something.

    Come along and take me up Maybe we could try again

    > I'm going to dream about "us" working for efffffing ever, mostly because I didn't get closure. I still believe that we can "work" even though you disappeared, and we grew apart, and one of us (author) didn't notice. And now it's too late... I still have hope. It's probably misguided, but it's still hope. Without hope, we are nothing.

    Cause there were still things I wanted to say But I was so young I was too afraid that nothing could be saved

    > I realize some of what I/you/we did wrong. I never got to tell you how I felt, where I saw us going, what I thought our life could have been. I never got to ask you if you wanted those things, too.

    > I never got to tell you about my hopes and dreams because you didn't want to listen. You still don't. And yes, I need to stop wanting to say those things, to stop feeling the pain/anger/blame, to move on. But I can't. It meant more to me than you. You ghosted me.

    GuitarHero9000on December 10, 2022   Link

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