"This Is Gospel" as written by Brendon Boyd Urie, Dallon James Weekes and Jacob Scott Sinclair....
This is gospel for the fallen ones
Locked away in permanent slumber
Assembling their philosophies
From pieces of broken memories

Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart

The gnashing teeth and criminal tongues conspire against the odds
But they haven’t seen the best of us yet

If you love me let me go
If you love me let me go
‘Cause these words are knives that often leave scars
The fear of falling apart
And truth be told, I never was yours
The fear, the fear of falling apart

Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart

This is gospel for the vagabonds,
Ne’er-do-wells, insufferable bastards
Confessing their apostasies
Led away by imperfect impostors

Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart
Oh, this is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart

Don’t try to sleep through the end of the world
Bury me alive
'Cause I won’t give up without a fight

If you love me let me go
If you love me let me go
‘Cause these words are knives that often leave scars
The fear of falling apart
And truth be told, I never was yours
The fear, the fear of falling apart

Oh, the fear of falling apart
Oh, the fear, the fear of falling apart

Oh (This is the beat of my heart)
The fear of falling apart

Oh (This is the beat of my heart)
The fear of falling apart

Oh (This is the beat of my heart)
The fear of falling apart

Oh (This is the beat of my heart)
The fear of falling apart

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"This Is Gospel" as written by Brendan Urie Jacob Scott Sinclair

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  • +14
    Song MeaningIn the current issue of Alt Press, Brendon said the song is about Spencer's battle with drugs. To quote him, "I was... angry at Spence when I wrote the song... It's like, "Why won't you let me help you? Why won't you let anyone in? All I want is to make a difference for you so we can rise above this."
    MHC1996on October 01, 2013   Link
  • +7
    My InterpretationI think that this song has something to do with Ryan Ross and Jon Walker leaving the band because in recent interviews Brendon Urie has mentioned them leaving. I interpret the chorus part "If you love me, let me go
    If you love me, let me go

    Cause these words are knives and often leave scars
    for fear of falling apart
    And truth be told I never was yours
    for fear for fear of falling apart"

    as maybe what they said before they left telling Brendon Urie and Spencer Smith that if he loved them (as in friends) then they should let Ryan and Jon leave. It would have probably been hard for them to hear the words "if you love me let me go" so that is why the line "cause these words are knives and often leave scars". It was obviously hard for them all.

    Later on in the song the line "cause I won't give up without a fight" comes up which could show that before Ryan and Jon left Brendon and Spencer maybe begged them not to go and fought for them to stay.
    LStruw123on August 14, 2013   Link
  • +6
    My InterpretationI think this song is about not conforming to what society thinks. Because if we look at it line by line... The lyrics are pointing to that.
    i.e., This is gospel for the fallen ones
    Locked away in permanent slumber
    Assembling their philosophies
    From pieces and broken memories

    What he's saying: This is my tribute to those people who have died because they questioned the wrong-doings of society. For example: Differing religious beliefs in the Middle East, The Great Depression, and even accepting African Americans in the 1960's.

    Another example:
    This is gospel for the vagabonds,
    Ne're-do-wells and insufferable bastards
    Confessing their apostasies
    led away by imperfect impostors

    What he's trying to say: This is my tribute to the people who are considered "criminals", who have been shunned, for their beliefs. Confessing that they don't agree with these ways. Being led by hypocrites saying that "What you are doing is wrong" when they believe that you are right.

    Lastly, this takes the cake:
    Don't try and sleep through the end of the world
    and bury me alive
    'cause I won't give up without a fight

    What he's trying to say: Don't live being left unspoken. SPEAK YOUR MIND. Share your opinion and believe in it no matter what the cost. And don't give up without giving a valiant effort. DON'T CONFORM TO SOCIETY. Be different! Think differently! And as his album is called: Too Weird to Live, Too Rare to Die... This meaning makes perfect sense.

    That was my interpretation of the song, but then again. This song is so completely diverse and can be construed in so many different ways. But, that's what I believe he is telling us through his words :)
    kaylareon August 14, 2013   Link
  • +4
    My InterpretationBrendon said that this song was dedicated towards Spencer, which has swayed the way in what I believe the meaning is about.

    I think it is about how Spencer was bottling up everything about his addiction, to the point where he was falling apart. However the reason he was bottling it up was also, ultimately, so he wouldn't look as though he had fallen apart in front of the people he loves and who cares about him.

    The scene with the doctors links with the whole part of prescription drugs and what he was taking. Almost as if the Doctors were holding him back from getting the drugs, but in the end, they gave up and prescribed them (when Brendon was sedated).

    The scene with the coffin could also be to suggest he knew his fate if he continued, but also that because of him bottling his emotions and secrets up, he was drowning. And the fact that Brendon was still wearing his converse highlights that he was comfortable in that outfit; they are casual. Demonstrating that Spencer felt comfortable knowing nobody knew about his secret even if it was tearing him apart from the inside out.

    Then the scene with the splashing water and ropes can demonstrate his 'coming to terms' with his problems and trying to break free. The ropes could be a personification of himself trying to hold him back; to get back to the comfort of the secret and the drugs locked away inside of him 'till death do us part' (the coffin). However he managed to break free, therefore portraying his decision to receive help and announce it to fans.

    Just my interpretation. Thanks for reading :D
    Hedaatthediscoon January 21, 2014   Link
  • +3
    My InterpretationI strongly believe that this song is about a break up. The "fallen ones" are the ones who just got broken up with. They are "assembling their philosophies from pieces of broken memories". So they are try to figure out what to do now that they are broken up. "They haven't seen the best of us yet" means they are better off apart. "If you love me let me go" means it is time to get over your feelings for that person. The "words leaving scars" are the actual break up, hence "the fear of falling apart". "Truth be told I never was yours" is realizing that the relationship wasn't based on supporting each other, or being each others. So this song is for the "vagabonds" or wanderers, which means the people who went through the break up. The "ne're-do-wells and insufferable bastards" are how people feel when they break up. "Confessing their apostasies" is finally leaving behind that disaster of a religion or in this case relationship. Now they are trying to find themselves again among the "imperfect impostors"."Don't try and sleep through the end of the world
    and bury me alive" this sums up how anyone feels after a break up.
    "'cause I won't give up without a fight" again what happens just before the end of a relationship

    Just my two cents and this song helped me through my break up!
    leahitchon September 23, 2013   Link
  • +3
    My InterpretationI do know what Brendon has said the song is actually about, but I have a personal interpretation of it that is somewhat different. When I first heard it, I thought it was a song from the point of view of somebody who was attempting to commit suicide: with "If you love me, let me go" being a plea to their family member/significant other/etc. to "let them go" from their life. The doctors in the video sort of reinforced that for me, since they were portrayed as holding him back and not letting him go. And the line "The fear of falling apart," which was repeated many times throughout the song, could have been talking about being afraid of hitting a breaking point and breaking down before he could do anything about it.

    I also thought that the first lines ("This is gospel for the fallen ones/Locked away in permanent slumber") could have been an homage to those who have taken their own lives in the past.

    Of course, this interpretation is not what Brendon had in mind, but I think a song can take on many different forms depending on who hears it.
    ijustwishon October 12, 2013   Link
  • +3
    My InterpretationQuarterlife Crisis and Growing Up - What This Song Means to Me

    At the moment I'm going through a "quarterlife crisis." I'm in my forth year of university in engineering but thinking maybe it's not for me after all. I've decided to take next semester away from school to work so I can figure out what a meaningful life for me really is. My parents are not too happy with this decision but of course it's my life, I'm an adult and can do what I think is right for me.

    I feel like this song is speaking directly to my mom when it says "If you love me let me go" because in reality only I can make the right decisions for me and I know that what I choose to do is the right choice.

    When it says "Cause these words are knives that often leave scars" it feels like all the words my parents have raised me with that I have to be a good student and now their disappointment when I look at the possibility that the path I'm currently on may not be for me. Them expressing their disappointment truly feels like knives jarring at me.
    (Note: My situation differs from the song though because I won't let these words leave scars since I know they are not true. I know this seeming disappointment is in reality just my mom's fears that without being in school and on a clear path, I will fall apart (see next line).)
    (Note 2: Their words did leave scars when I was a child though which is why changing paths now is so difficult for me)
    (Note 3: It's also not just about my parents, but also friends and my perception of society in general)

    But of course, there is always that "fear of falling apart" that holds me back from straying from the safe path (of engineering).

    I know not to give into that fear though because I know I'm doing the right thing for me. "This is the beat of my heart, this is the beat of my heart."

    "Don’t try to sleep through the end of the world
    Bury me alive
    'Cause I won’t give up without a fight"
    This is saying to me don't force me to be in a boring career I don't care about my whole life. I'll fight to do what I really want.

    At the beginning of the song when it says "This is gospel for the fallen ones
    Locked away in permanent slumber
    Assembling their philosophies
    From pieces of broken memories"
    I think it's talking about all those people that are just following what society is telling them they should do which they find mundane since they did not choose it for themselves and it is therefore unimportant for them. But they have to fit it in with their philosophies to justify spending their lives this way.

    I love at how the song continuously repeats
    "Oh (This is the beat of my heart)
    The fear of falling apart"
    Because I know I have to follow "the beat of my heart" ie. what I know is right for me. At the same time though, there is so so so much fear of it not working out (me not working out!) and just falling apart. (But I must remember that as long as I keep trying and see things as coming at me in order to make me stronger then I can never actually break. Only I am in charge of if I fall apart.) Even while knowing this though, the fear is so powerful.
    engine260410on December 03, 2014   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationI know this is not how it was mean't, I know why Brendon wrote it, but I had my own idea before I discovered that and I want to tell a story.

    It's a stupid one, and especially not a rarity. I'm 14 and I guess its going to seem naive and immature.

    It's my first year of secondary school and the first time in my school life i've felt like I fit in anywhere. I listen to weird music, I dress differently, I somewhat emo I guess, my wrists are scarred, I'm weird and nerdy.

    This year I met a bunch of guys and a few girls who I fit in with. It was pretty amazing. I dont feel shy or insecure around them.

    I had two best friends, both guys and stupidly, I had a crush on one. Cooper's not exactly cute, nor normal, but I loved his personality and I trusted him with all my dark secrets. I dont really trust people.

    Of course, one day I realised I liked him and I kinda wanted to ask him out but i was scared to ruin our friendship. I had no idea what to do. I told Luke and eventually it got out and one of my friends asked him out for me and so on...

    We got together and yeah promised nothing would happen if we broke up.

    So far I swear I sound like a dumb little kid who thinks she's in love.

    I don't know how to explain the feeling.

    He made me feel like maybe I was worth something. Maybe I wasn't ugly. I truly believed him when he called me beautiful. It's not a light I've ever seen myself in before. We would text all night, and it was amazing, I loved him so much. It's indescribable. I was certain I wouldn't be okay without him, because it was only with him I had recovered from everything else.

    One day, at school, he got hit in the head with a rock, and I was the first one at his side and blood just poured everywhere.

    I got on the bus that night and Charlotte and Luke were behind me.
    "Luke, can I please tell her?"
    "She'll find out soon enough, dont make it worse."

    Charlotte told me anyway.

    Cooper was planning to break up with me.

    It was amazing, the physical pain, I could feel everything drop as the reality reduced me to tears. I was broken from that moment on.

    I got home and texted him, telling him I already knew. I was holding onto the very very last hope that maybe it was all shit and we'd be okay.

    I was wrong.

    I think it took 11 hours of crying to get me to sleep. I was just utterly broken. I was lost. Idk. I wasn't okay. I needed him. I missed him soo much.

    I had people there for me the entire time, but I felt alone. Erghh I hate saying this part but I stopped eating and started cutting.

    Anyway... where this is going. Cooper and I stopped talking. He got a new girlfriend and I needed to let got. 7 weeks later I havent let go and I'm not okay. But beside the point. I always took this song as coming from Cooper.

    "If you love me let me go" I need to let go...
    "These words are knives and often leave scars" What his words left behind
    "And truth be told I never was yours" We are 14, it doesnt matter, did i really expect it to last?
    "The fear of falling apart." I'm just scared of falling apart without him.

    That's how I always saw it... kinda dumb, huh?
    BrokenMemorieson November 24, 2013   Link
  • 0
    My InterpretationA thought might be that this is towards the LDS church (Mormons). Brendon Urie was part of the LDS church when he was younger and left for reasons unknown. I don't have the slightest idea if he doesn't like the religion or not, he could love it for what I know and just decided he didn't want to be a part of it.

    But onto and interpretation, he could mean with the first 4 lines, this is enlightenment for the people that converted to the religion by just jumping in blind, charmed into joining, or possibly selfish reasons. Then referring to the "philosophy" and "broken memories" could be that the religion is based off of The Book of Mormon, historical script that is much like The Bible. Also from scripts and stories of latter day LDS prophets such as Joseph Smith that may be believed to have been exaggerated.

    Next 4 lines could be about the social competition within the social part of the church and some of the members preaching false doctrine to the unsuspecting for personal gain.

    Then to the chorus, beginning with "If you love me, let me go", might refer to the church to discontinue to try to bring him back. The LDS church keeps all members records, including the ones who are less or inactive (unless they became a Satan worshiper or something), which they use to occasionally reach out and try to bring them back, whether through missionaries, other members, or church officials. "The fear of falling apart" being that the church could be afraid to lose members because it will make the church look unsteady and people might cease to believe in it if they see people leaving it.

    Second verse referring to the members in the church that struggle to follow the rules that have been set forth by the church. After committing any sin of the sort, you begin the repentance process by confessing to the bishop. "Imperfect impostors" might be referring to some of the bishops. After all, you are confessing your sins to a man that can sin just as easily as you.

    Well that's about all. I, myself, am Mormon. I do enjoy the church, so I'm not writing this to bash on the church, and I don't think that Brendon Urie is an Anti-Mormon either. Just some food for thought!
    LanceGonzaleson September 04, 2013   Link
  • 0
    My InterpretationI think this is about Brendon being conflicted in his decision to give up his faith. He didnt want to be mormon anymore but was under pressure with his family.
    I dont know if this is right or not, just what I think
    MyCyanideLifeon October 29, 2013   Link

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