Patience

This song, to me, is about increasing depression and disillusionment with the world. It's about how difficult it can be to interact with others and to fully integrate into society, thus "lacking rhythm." With no connections or investments in the world, with nothing to care about, you feel "barely conscious." Even then, you're still oversensitive and the smallest thing can get to you and discourage you. The chorus ("get out of my mind") has two meanings for me - it can be about finding the world to be increasingly invasive and demanding, and wanting to escape it; or pushing away the people who are concerned about you.

This song appearing for me at a time of my life at first when I could really vibe with it. After dealing with a lot of self worth, and relationship issues this song randomly appeared again in my life. Theres a lot of meaning in that for me espcially and while i thought the above was a good take on it, my reaction to this song at this time in my life begs another interpretation.

I'm sick of losing my patience out of time lacking rhythm barely concious oversensitive feeling weaker as I stumble around

This evokes to me someone who has struggled to get to a point in their life where they finally relent. They are aware of how tiring it stinging it is to just simply exist. Sick of losing my patience, sick of being disconnect from what i know, what I think, and how I feel. Not able to find grounding, and KNOWING you need to be fully grounded.

It evokes a profound feeling of being lost but being able to see the scope of the toll its taking on his mind. I think we all get to a point in our lives where we are out of step and impatient with where we are in our lives. Where we are conscious but only barely. Like we are hardly even there, like we are alone around company. Every outside influence, every little thing stabs and stings into our heart; oversensitive to the point of crumbling at the things that maybe before we would have let fall off our backs. The pervading sense of weakness, and inability to stay stable on our own two legs stumbling from moment to moment.

Get out of my mind

Purely a cry from the core of despair, longing, frustration, anger. Wanting to be free of the things that stifle us, pull us down. Seeing them as the villainous "Other". This I think is the break point of our patience. Just the wish and need to be free inside and out. The world projecting the "invasive and demanding" routine and our need to escape just shows how much we escape ourselves. The world and our place in it; its hard to see if you are constantly running. Even harder to keep those who want to help you heal around when you are running away from what it really takes for you to heal. In this sense, the chorus serves as a release for all of these multi faceted emotions. Till we fall back into the pit with the second half of the song... (as you see, the chorus isn't actually about getting it out of our mind. Those are just the words the compulsion uses to express itself. The face of the primal compulsion to be the free)

In the morning rests the paper

A beginning to the day anew, same routine, same expected behavior. Already running low, and out of focus. The paper I can see as a symbol of reality, of the world, of the harshness of every day life.

heavy snow fall wakes the neighbors

Heavy snowfall...a symbol of the deep emotional depth and numbness that the seemingly unending and painful road has forced us into. I often times found myself finding solace in the image of snow fall. A need to hibernate and close one off. Waking the neighbors is a metaphor for this need for isolation and numbness to cope and deal with life not flowing the way we desperately hope for; symbolizing how when we get like this it does cause people to take notice. Neighbors, people we live next to but in this day and age dont truly know as well as we would like. It gives me the feeling of recognizing that the people who are closest in proximity to you are feeling the coldness being emanated from you.

the alarm calls I clean out my eyes

The alarm...a symbol of the inner thought and compulsion in us to keep going. To pay attention. TO force ourselves to deal, and to wipe away our tears. However...

feeling nauseous as the world spins around

Its impossible to just ignore how deep the dissonance pains you. Making your body react as if it is sick. Wanting to just throw up all of the malaise and disgust that we just cant seem to digest. Feeling dizzy and not being able to see how this is overtaking us, overwhelming us. Bringing us rapidly back to the brink, and wanting it to just end. Not wanting to endure it, just wanting to be free.

Get out of my mind

Back to the pure need to express this pain. Struggling with accepting any of it. Somehow..this second time though, even though these waves can ebb and flow amidst all this awareness; this release shows how deep our need is. It leaves us wanting, for patience. To be able to just flow and let go. To accept, and pass through. I think the only reason this song resonates with me now is, because I finally had all that i can stomach and I am ready. I reached the breaking point. I will fight for my patience. Thats what it feels like the singer is saying through their pain..