Clear the Apartment.
I plan on collapsing and I could have sworn I heard a car door slam.
I'm stuck at the corner of grinding teeth and stomach acid, all alone under a soft rain and streetlamp.
I spent my life weighed down by a stone heart, drowning in irony and settling for anything.
Somewhere down the line all the wiring went faulty. I'm scared shitless of failure and I'm staring out at where I wanna be.

I just want to sell out my funeral; I just want to be enough for everyone.
I just want to sell out my funeral; Know that I fought until the lights were gone.

I'm walking through harbors and churchyards. I felt the snow crack under my feet.
I'll stay thankful for mild winters, for every shot I got at anything.
I'll blame the way that I was brought up or the flaws that I was born with or the mistakes that I've made, they're all just fucking excuses.
So bury me in the memories of my friends and family.
I just need to know that they were proud of me.

I just want to sell out my funeral; I just want to be enough for everyone.
I just want to sell out my funeral; Know that I fought until the lights were gone.

Oh, we all wanna know where'd the American dream go? Did you give up and go home? Am I here alone?
Oh, when the credits roll, I'll watch as the screen glows; the moments when I choked, all the
fears that I've outgrown
At least I hope so.

I was just happy to be a contender; I was just aching for anything.
And I used to have such steady hands but now I can't keep them from shaking.
I'm sorry I...

I'm sorry I don't laugh at the right times; Is this what it feels like with my wings clipped?
I'm awkward and nervous; I'm awkward and nervous
I'm awkward and nervous; I'm awkward and nervous

But I was kind of hoping you'd stay.
I was kind of hoping you'd stay; I was kind of hoping you'd stay.
I need you to stay. Oh, god, could you stay?
I need you to stay, I need you to stay; I need you.

If I'm in an airport and you're in a hospital bed, then, what kind of man does that make me?
If I'm in an airport and you're in a hospital bed, then, what kind of man does that make me?
If I'm in an airport (If I'm in an airport); what kind of man does that make me?
What kind of man does that make me?
What kind of man does that make me?

I know how it feels to be at war with a world that never loved me.
When all we had were hand me-downs
(I know how it feels to be at war with a world that never loved me.)
When all we had were hand me-downs
When all we had were hand me-downs
All we had was good will.

Two blackbirds on a highway sign are laughing at me here with my wings clipped.
I'm staring up at the sky but the bombs keep fucking falling.
There's no devil on my shoulder; he's got a rocking chair on my front porch but I won't let him in.
No, I won't let him in; 'cause I'm sick of seeing ghosts and I know how it's all gonna end.
There's no triumph waiting; there's no sunset to ride off in.
We all want to be great men and there's nothing romantic about it.
I just want to know that I did all I could with what I was given.


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  • +4
    General CommentThis song ties the whole record together, I dont exactly know how but it does. Makes me think its a concept record. But this song is amazing I love it the last line sums up the whole album for me
    Cuthroatclarkon May 29, 2013   Link
  • +4
    General CommentToo long? Suck it.

    Not long enough.
    TheWonderYearsfanon June 13, 2013   Link
  • +4
    General Comment"I just want to know that I did all I could with what I was given."

    May just be the best closing line to an album I've ever heard.
    AFarewellToKingson August 08, 2013   Link
  • +2
    Song MeaningI've been piecing together the lyrics from the rest of the tracks. Here's some I picked out

    I was just happy to be a contender; I was just aching for anything.
    And I used to have such steady hands but now I can't keep them from shaking.
    - A Raindance in traffic

    I'm sorry I don't laugh at the right times; Is this what it feels like with my wings clipped?
    - There, There

    But I was kind of hoping you'd stay.
    I was kind of hoping you'd stay; I was kind of hoping you'd stay.
    - Passing through a screen door

    If I'm in an airport and you're in a hospital bed, then, what kind of man does that make me?
    - Dismantling Summer

    I know how it feels to be at war with a world that never loved me.
    - The Devil In My Bloodstream

    When all we had were hand me-downs
    - Teenage Parents

    I'm staring up at the sky but the bombs keep fucking falling.
    - Passing through a screen door
    Twikkion July 03, 2013   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThe song is about looking over your life and hoping you were a good person. The line about the screen showing the moments in this person's life seems to me like he's saying his life is flashing before his eyes right before death. It then goes on to "show" these moments by repeating lyrics from previous songs on the albums. All these lyrics are important decisions that the writer made or are important qualities that the writer has. Basically the last line says it all. "I just need to know that I did all I could with what I was given"
    bairhsnyvaon August 24, 2013   Link
  • +1
    General CommentOkay well this is just what came into my mind after listening to this band for about a year now and I think this song (one of their greatest) deals with stretching yourself out, trying to please everyone which is one thing that can lead to depression and anxiety which their albums tend to deal with apart from No Closer. Take the title of the song and the line "I'm scared shitless of failure," for example, I think he is trying to say that well he just wants "to be enough for everyone" and that it's killing him inside, maybe that's why it's his funeral idfk
    Poppunksucks182on September 10, 2015   Link
  • 0
    General Comment2009 - 12 - 05:
    Soupy tweets "I only met my great grandfather once, but yesterday, he sold out his funeral. Must have been a great man. Reading his memoirs #theupsides"

    4 years later this album comes out with the song I Just Want To Sell Out My Funeral and the lyrics "I searched through my great-grandpop's memoirs
    For the devil in my bloodstream" (The Devil In My Bloodstream).
    frnkieroon January 30, 2016   Link
  • -2
    General CommentTo be fair, they've been doing concept albums since The Upsides.

    But yeah, they use all the lyrics from the other songs on the album to get across a central theme, and while I think it's done pretty well, it might be a little too long.

    Still mad cool.
    kredmondon May 31, 2013   Link

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