This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I'm addicted to feeling, stealing love isn't stealing
Can't you see that I understand your mind?
I'm a walking believer, I'm a ghost and a healer
I'm the shape of the hole inside your heart
Not looking for a brighter side
Crooked steps will take me higher
I don't care if you want to cry
I'm a soldier for hire killing all you admire
And you live in denial but that will change, hey
Not looking for a brighter side
Crooked steps will take me higher
I don't care if you want to cry
When blood is raining down, it cuts a deep deep river, yeah
And we're diving, yeah, we're diving
My crooked steps right behind you (Right behind you)
My crooked steps right behind you (Right behind you)
My crooked steps right behind you (Right behind you)
My crooked steps right behind you (Right behind you)
I'm a walking believer, I'm a ghost and a healer
Can't you see that I understand your mind?
Can't you see that I understand your mind?
My crooked steps right behind you
My crooked steps right behind you
My crooked steps right behind you
My crooked steps right behind you
My crooked steps right behind you
Right behind you, right behind you, right behind you
Can't you see that I understand your mind?
I'm a walking believer, I'm a ghost and a healer
I'm the shape of the hole inside your heart
Not looking for a brighter side
Crooked steps will take me higher
I don't care if you want to cry
I'm a soldier for hire killing all you admire
And you live in denial but that will change, hey
Not looking for a brighter side
Crooked steps will take me higher
I don't care if you want to cry
When blood is raining down, it cuts a deep deep river, yeah
And we're diving, yeah, we're diving
My crooked steps right behind you (Right behind you)
My crooked steps right behind you (Right behind you)
My crooked steps right behind you (Right behind you)
My crooked steps right behind you (Right behind you)
I'm a walking believer, I'm a ghost and a healer
Can't you see that I understand your mind?
Can't you see that I understand your mind?
My crooked steps right behind you
My crooked steps right behind you
My crooked steps right behind you
My crooked steps right behind you
My crooked steps right behind you
Right behind you, right behind you, right behind you
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By Crooked Steps Lyrics as written by Hunter Benedict Shepherd Chris J Cornell
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addendum: the phrase "crooked steps" is a favorite in cloak and dagger stories, so literally "right behind you" is not necessarily a supportive position.
there is, though this emily dickenson quote:
“I wish one could be sure the suffering had a loving side. The thought to look down some day, and see the crooked steps we came, from a safer place, must be a precious thing…” books.google.com/books
so maybe you guys aren't so far off. the quote though is not about a lover, but about a beloved family member, a "Myra" who has just recently died (in the letter, written in 1862)