"Vices" as written by and Kellen Mcgregor Matthew Mullins....
Drowning myself every night
Me versus me has always been my biggest fight
I've been so confused for so long
And the answers always seem so far out of sight
So I fill it up, fill it up one more time
So when everything is wrong at least I still feel right
I'm in the tunnel but I can't see the light

I just want to feel whole again
So I can let you in
I just want to feel whole again
I just want to feel whole
Oh where is my self control?
Where is my self control?

I've been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see?
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long
I never thought this would be me

But now I'm on the verge of self destruction
How could this happen to me?
I've never been the type to run from anything, run from anything
So sick and tired of wondering where my morals have gone
My father didn't raise me to become this
Where did I go wrong?

There is not much left of me
I can't feel the ground beneath my feet
There is not much left of me
I let everyone around me down
And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle
Just to block out the sound
God I need you now!

I've been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see?
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long
This is my vice, this is me weak

I need your love to erase this doubt
I need your hand to pull me out
Sometimes I feel like I will never learn
'Cause the bottle's always there when I have nowhere else to turn
Will I ever learn? Will I ever learn?

I take another sip
The dark room that I'm in becomes dimly lit
This can't be all there is

And I've been thinking this could be the end of me
Who is this person in the mirror I see?
And I have come so far, thought I was so strong
The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long
And the only one to blame is me

Who have I become?
This is my desperate shout
Pull me out!
Pull me out!
God I need you now!


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"Vices" as written by Matthew Mullins Kellen Mcgregor

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  • +2
    Song MeaningThis is about how this guy is struggling with an addiction or something that he relys on heavily.

    I feel like this could be easily related to by someone who self harms, smokes, uses pills, any drug really.
    spiderkisson March 28, 2013   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationI feel like this song is about how the vocalist decides to try and overcome his depression and negative attitude of the world through alcohol or drug abuse, leading him to addiction, increasing his negativity on the world and on himself.

    "Drowning myself every night" - possibly meaning he 'drowns' himself in alcohol or literally meaning attempted suicide

    "me versus me has always been my biggest fight" - stating that he has always had a mental battle between finding out who he really is and by trying to overcome the negative thoughts and depression he has in his mind

    "so I fill it up, fill it up one more time" - possibly indicating he is filling up his glass with more alcohol

    "I'm in the tunnel but I can't see the light" - he is in such a bad state of depression that he doesn't ever think he will be able to overcome it and be happy again

    "Where is my self control?" - he has an addiction towards alcohol / drug abuse that he has no control over himself anymore, it is apart of his routine now

    "I've been thinking this could be the end of me" - he's considering attempting to commit suicide

    "The truth is I've just fed myself a lie for too long" - he kept telling himself he was mentally strong but whenever he came into this state of depression he realised how wrong he was about his mental strength

    "I'm on the verge of self destruction" - on the verge of committing suicide

    "I've let everyone around me down/
    And now I'm headed to the bottom of the bottle" - he's let his family and friends down, with his only solution being to drink more alcohol to forget what they think of him

    "God I need you now!" - whether or not he believes in God himself, this is his call for help, he is shouting out hoping that he will be able to get out of this state of depression

    haven't mentioned everything, but this is my interpretation of this song. Haven't dealt with depression and negativity myself, and still to this day, I know how hard it is to overcome. Love the song, thanks for the inspiration Memphis May Fire !!

    pickle69on February 20, 2017   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThis is my opinion so hate it or don't but i feel like hes going threw addiction, Depression, losing someone, or trying to feel something other then the pain hes feeling right now so people would do anything to feel something other then the pain they feeli like cutting themselves, overdosing or even killing themselves i know for a fact because i'm one of those people whos tried at least one of these things it's hard to forget and you always feel alone i feel like thats what hes thinking but he tries to hide his pain with drugs or cutts all that and believes he is gonna kill himself
    ChasePetersenon August 26, 2015   Link

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