Ten years down the road
I’ll be cleanin’ out my closet, getting rid of old clothes
I reach behind my winter coat
And I stumble upon shoeboxes filled with old ghosts

Why did I hang onto your pictures
Why did I hang onto that dress
Cuz it kills me to see you, but it kills me not to
It kills me to remember and it kills me to forget

So I suppose you’ll be in every song I sing
If not written in my words, you’ll be hidden in these strings
Cuz how could I ever forget my first love
My first woman, first truth, first child from above

But why do I hang onto your pictures
Why have I not just thrown out that dress
Cuz it kills me to see you, but it kills me not to
It kills me to remember, oh and it kills me to forget

It kills me to see you…..but it kills me not to
It kills me to remember…..and it kills me to forget


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    This is probably one of the most hauntingly amazing songs I have ever heard about one's first true love and the after effects of losing that first true love.

    You experience so many firsts, so many truths about life, so many things that are seemingly bound to your core with that true love, that even long after they are gone and things are over they linger in the depths of your heart.

    The struggle this song embodies is that of holding on and letting go, but I think it goes much deeper than that. I think it stands for the fact that even after you have moved on and found love again you will never be able to fully shake that first love. It is a reassuring and haunting concept all at once.

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