This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
(Why) Uh... Yeah... (And I ask my self Why, Why? I can't understand Why?) Sometimes a nigga wake up naw mean. Wonder why he do the shit he do... naw mean, it's life, we make the most out of it though (I can't understand why)
[Verse 1:]
Aids took so many brothers yet we still goin raw covers, it's 2009. Gotta think smarter, stop being baby daddys and be fathers, I can't understand (Why) Some dudes vacate to the Hamptons knowin' they kids need pampers. wanna be a part of they life instead they trickin' different women no room for a wife, or a family (I can't understand why) God got a million names and if we made it his image does he see it the same, and if we flesh with his flesh can he feel my pain, teardrops symbolizing the rain. I just can't understand (Why) I get high to forget about the present why I'm not ridin' in the S6, but life is all about decisions make the most outta mine while I'm livin'... I ask myself (Why)
[Chorus:]
I do what I do. Live how I live. It is what it is. but... I told my momma I'd change but it's clear I'll always be the same. I ask myself (Why) [x2]
[Verse 2:]
I swear life is a maze, I'm just tryin' to get it right before I fade but I keep hittin' wars everyday is like a battle learn somethin' different everytime a nigga travel... Still (Why) They hatin' when I get home sayin' my name just so they can get known not in the same lane. It's ironic how I became a product of fame 20 years old out on my own (I can't understand Why?). I made those decisions I made, friendships decayed, bitches I laid and never called back. People I robbed, spots where I hung, rocks that I slung, niggas I socked and made fall back (I can't understand Why). Do good brothers turn bad, whippin 7 and a half outta 6 that's how we learn math. Kinda sick how we earn cash, not in a right mind so I petal along the wrong path (Can't understand Why)
[Chorus:]
I do what I do. Live how I live. It is what it is. but... I told my momma I'd change but it's clear I'll always be the same. I ask myself (Why) [x2]
[Verse 3:]
Everybody caught up in politics. Democrats, Republicans. When will the drama end? Mathematic how the government dividin' us, yet my mind shine bright as the Metropolis (Why). I feel the need to shine a light on the populus, so I write like a columnist, dictate like a communist. Through it all I continue to stand tall as the monuments (I can't understand Why). Heaven to Hell so I'm ponderin' which afterlife I'm a wind up in. Took too many losses so I gotta win, Fatherless, soakin' up knowledge from my momma's friends (Why) They all sold drugs and love to puff weed and angel dust couldn't teach me how to suck seed. So I bailed out, in the lab, beats sittin' in the jailhouse. (Can't understand...) Still I ask myself (Why)
[Chorus:]
I do what I do. Live how I live. It is what it is. but... I told my momma I'd change but it's clear I'll always be the same. I ask myself (Why) [x2]
[Verse 1:]
Aids took so many brothers yet we still goin raw covers, it's 2009. Gotta think smarter, stop being baby daddys and be fathers, I can't understand (Why) Some dudes vacate to the Hamptons knowin' they kids need pampers. wanna be a part of they life instead they trickin' different women no room for a wife, or a family (I can't understand why) God got a million names and if we made it his image does he see it the same, and if we flesh with his flesh can he feel my pain, teardrops symbolizing the rain. I just can't understand (Why) I get high to forget about the present why I'm not ridin' in the S6, but life is all about decisions make the most outta mine while I'm livin'... I ask myself (Why)
[Chorus:]
I do what I do. Live how I live. It is what it is. but... I told my momma I'd change but it's clear I'll always be the same. I ask myself (Why) [x2]
[Verse 2:]
I swear life is a maze, I'm just tryin' to get it right before I fade but I keep hittin' wars everyday is like a battle learn somethin' different everytime a nigga travel... Still (Why) They hatin' when I get home sayin' my name just so they can get known not in the same lane. It's ironic how I became a product of fame 20 years old out on my own (I can't understand Why?). I made those decisions I made, friendships decayed, bitches I laid and never called back. People I robbed, spots where I hung, rocks that I slung, niggas I socked and made fall back (I can't understand Why). Do good brothers turn bad, whippin 7 and a half outta 6 that's how we learn math. Kinda sick how we earn cash, not in a right mind so I petal along the wrong path (Can't understand Why)
[Chorus:]
I do what I do. Live how I live. It is what it is. but... I told my momma I'd change but it's clear I'll always be the same. I ask myself (Why) [x2]
[Verse 3:]
Everybody caught up in politics. Democrats, Republicans. When will the drama end? Mathematic how the government dividin' us, yet my mind shine bright as the Metropolis (Why). I feel the need to shine a light on the populus, so I write like a columnist, dictate like a communist. Through it all I continue to stand tall as the monuments (I can't understand Why). Heaven to Hell so I'm ponderin' which afterlife I'm a wind up in. Took too many losses so I gotta win, Fatherless, soakin' up knowledge from my momma's friends (Why) They all sold drugs and love to puff weed and angel dust couldn't teach me how to suck seed. So I bailed out, in the lab, beats sittin' in the jailhouse. (Can't understand...) Still I ask myself (Why)
[Chorus:]
I do what I do. Live how I live. It is what it is. but... I told my momma I'd change but it's clear I'll always be the same. I ask myself (Why) [x2]
Lyrics submitted by God1Loves1Ugly
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