Used to be clean
Now I'm filthy as can be
Scrubbing off every spot

Used to be mean
Now I'm good as can be
Brace me up, I'm your slut

May the god of me protect my soul
As I stay a little while longer
In this dusty rabbit hole
To sing my song chained onto your bed

Used to be told,
My silence is gold
Coughing up every drop

Used to keep small,
Now I'm granting you all
Stepping up, I'm your slut

May the god of me protect my soul
As I stay a little while longer
In this dusty rabbit hole
To sing my song chained onto your bed


Lyrics submitted by violitblaze, edited by Stockholm, plays

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  • +4
    General Comment

    'As I stay a little while longer In this dusty rabbit hole' my favorite part. great build up.

    as far as interpretation goes, i'm guessing it's like an inverted world of twisted ethics. In the 'dusty rabbit hole' she's filthy, yet good and 'not mean'. Maybe it's a prostitute/slut's messed up mind?

    or as an artist/singer, how she's become 'filthy' in terms of the sexual aspect of her videos. From this performance, she's 'our' slut, 'granting [us] art', and singing thus breaking the silence that was once considered 'gold'. Last but not least, she's staying in the 'dusty rabbit hole' of music and story oriented, surreal short films to 'sing [her] song chained onto our bed'. As we listen/watch, we take the memory/tune to bed when we sleep and recall it.

    I'm more prone to believe the latter, but who knows.

    lisasonodaon May 19, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General Comment

    Anyone find any significance in "slut" meaning "end" in Swedish?

    Symphony Marieon February 11, 2014   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    MY FUCKING LIFE. OMFG. Love this song so much.

    sleepymekoon May 19, 2011   Link
  • 0
    Lyric Correction

    I can't tell if she's saying "I'm your slut" or "I'm your star"

    violitblazeon May 20, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    agreed much with xoco's interpretation. this song/video is about deciding to continue the iamamiwhoami project. in many ways, the project relies on "filthy" tactics to create interest in jonna's music: overt sexuality, mystery of the artists' identities, groundbreaking viral video release of material, etc... "the god of me" refers to her artistic integrity--she begs forgiveness for "staying here" in "this dusty rabbit hole": using such base means to share her art, and more specifically staying out of the public eye--hiding behind the mystery of iamamiwhoami. the video speaks volumes. she is isolated in a room, having her image projected (the parallel to the youtube release of videos is undeniable) to men who are presumably pleasuring themselves while watching her dance without joy on her face. when she enters their chamber (completely covered--a reference to the intrigue of the earlier videos) the viewers avert their eyes--she is captivating when she is not in public eye. it openly questions whether she, as an artist, could have the same impact without the viral youtube technique of iamamiwhoami.

    dannyw036on May 28, 2011   Link
  • 0
    Lyric Correction

    She says "I'm your slut" the first time, then "I'm your star" later. I'm certain of this.

    kanetenon May 28, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    A sexual player who actually feels guilt...he would not scrub himself off if he did not. He's a fake...he aspires to be what she wants to see. He has created this vacuum ('hole') in which he hides; what people see is not who he knows he is. He steps up to the plate to be the man he feels she wants...a sexual being. He's merely a man who uses sex to get what he wants (ie. love, etc) as he hides behind a mask. Fascinating lyrics.

    MaryMaryQuiteContraryon August 26, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General Comment

    Simply put:

    Such as it is This is my song

    Suskaon July 04, 2012   Link
  • 0
    Song Fact

    All music is soulful and spiritual so this song was created ahead of time over precognitive/telepathic purposes. It’s about a polygamous gay man (who’s discovering that he’s polyamorous) in love with another polygamous gay man named “John”. They’re in love with each other, but “John” is acutely playing hard to get (alongside the rest of the polygamous gay men within that polyamorous relationship) — that’s why the gay guy who’s in the midst of his discovery is demanding that John “braces him up”. The reason why she says “I’m your slut” is because the gay man doesn’t completely understand what polyamory is or how it works, so he considers himself a “slut” instead of a man that has more than one lover (John being one of them). It’s hard to explain for me, but it definitely has to do with insecurity and fear. It’s about something that’s very real. This song isn’t about female sluts in high school/college and all of that nonsense — you can tell by mere spirit that it isn’t. Songs give off vibes — you can always tell whether that song was made for a specific person, specific people, or a specific purpose.

    This song is extremely nuanced. There are double/triple/quadruple-entendres in what she’s saying. There’s also no coincidence that Iamamiwhoami has a suspicious amount of homosexuals in her audience (just like Azealia Banks does). They’re people who superficially look like they’re not making music for a specific audience, but they actually are. Like, there’s a reason why you hear gay men singing songs with lyrics that superficially look like they were made for women, but the soul knows the truth — you can tell that it was made for gay men. So, I don’t know why the other comments are trying to paint this song as if it’s about females in high school being sluts or prostitutes or some other heterosexual bullshit when it’s clear as day that this is about homosexual polyamory. What kind of fucking polyamorous heterosexual woman sits there saying, “May the god of me protect my soul…” as if this song was made in 1629 (centuries before feminism came about)? Feminism has AVIDLY protected female sexuality and you’re telling me that this song is relatable for females in the 2000s? Seriously, give me a break with all of this “I’m a female and I relate to this” nonsense. Women don’t say “may the god of me protect my soul” because they’re polyamorous — women are ACUTELY aware that feminism exists so I’m not buying that bullshit. A polyamorous gay man will most definitely say “may the god of me protect my soul” especially while being polyamorous. Emphasis on the god of ME… as in, this polyamorous gay man is so fucking insecure that he has to resort to believing in a god that specifically cares about him because the god that’s responsible for the major heteronormative religions has let him down! Seriously, if you read the major religious texts, you come to realise that the ones within the LGBT+ that are receiving the most criticism are HOMOSEXUAL MEN. Technically, EVERYONE is receiving criticism for all types of “sinning”, but when it comes to criticism of sexuality, homosexual men have it the worst. That’s an undeniable fact. Based on this, a polyamorous homosexual man is mathematically MORE LIKELY to resort to creating his own god that listens to him and cares for him more than any other person of any other sexual orientation or gender identity.

    To imply that this song isn’t spiritual or soulful in nature is erroneous because she mentions “God” and “soul”. I’m listening to the vibes that this song is giving off more than I’m listening to the lyrics. It’s kind of like when someone you know undeniably loves you says “I hate you” — you know that they’re lying because the vibes that they’re exuding while they say “I hate you” aren’t hateful vibes, but loving vibes… and the intention is also to make you laugh.

    earla10974on October 18, 2022   Link

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