In a dream, there's a boy
Twice my age, and maybe more
His hands are cut like stone
And I don't know what he's doing
But he's inside of me

In a car, on the lot
After a movie with my mom
Are the words that won't sting
They'll just burn and keep burning
He's still inside of me

My knees are weak, my anger's thick
My bones are brittle, my body's sick
And all I've ever known
Is when I fuck, I fuck to prove him wrong

I know, you know
I saw, you saw

Your hands in Portland, Oregon
Baby, in the car last night
Were you gonna pick a fight
Lover, I will count to three
Say a little prayer you'll leave
By the time our friends arrive
Will the cuts have cauterized?
Maybe you can open them
Let it leak out a bit

My knees are weak, my anger's thick
My bones are brittle, my body's sick
And all I've ever known
Is when I fuck, I fuck to prove him wrong

When I was young there was a boy
Twice my age and maybe more
His hands were cast like stone
And he practiced what he learned
Inside of me


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    i used to prefer much the first album, the one with this song is really different, it takes time to really appreciate it. i'm french so the lyrics doont hit me directly. but this song is sick. i feel bad and sad and dirty, there is something in this song really scary imo.

    mistakenforvaljesteron April 11, 2011   Link

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