This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Pinch your cheeks so flush with light
leaves little dents so ill-defined
A finger bound in knots of twine
To ground the things that slip your mind
Pale your wrist stays, blue on white to
Match the shapes beneath your eyes you
Fake it through those trying times and
All that's left are laughter lines
Spends much time or do me right where once it's no longer bright enough
To catch your paper heart alight consumed in burning white I lost your
Letters in that fire and though the memories of that touch that cling
The weight of your self-interest passed between two bodies brush
Lest this messed your makeshift dress with the faintest smell of this
And just beneath the perfume on your neck is the faintest smell of death
You take your faith and circular reminders that say someday you'll rest
Elaborate fantasies of bloody knees and empty providence
You owe your life to promises forgotten, makes the things you never kissed
In retrospect it all seemed so so selfish, well fuck this, fuck this, fuck this
Pale your wrists stay, blue on white
And pinch your cheeks 'neath sunken eyes
Leaves little dents so ill-defined
A finger seen as blue design
A finger bound in knots of twine
to ground the things that slip your mind
leaves little dents so ill-defined
A finger bound in knots of twine
To ground the things that slip your mind
Pale your wrist stays, blue on white to
Match the shapes beneath your eyes you
Fake it through those trying times and
All that's left are laughter lines
Spends much time or do me right where once it's no longer bright enough
To catch your paper heart alight consumed in burning white I lost your
Letters in that fire and though the memories of that touch that cling
The weight of your self-interest passed between two bodies brush
Lest this messed your makeshift dress with the faintest smell of this
And just beneath the perfume on your neck is the faintest smell of death
You take your faith and circular reminders that say someday you'll rest
Elaborate fantasies of bloody knees and empty providence
You owe your life to promises forgotten, makes the things you never kissed
In retrospect it all seemed so so selfish, well fuck this, fuck this, fuck this
Pale your wrists stay, blue on white
And pinch your cheeks 'neath sunken eyes
Leaves little dents so ill-defined
A finger seen as blue design
A finger bound in knots of twine
to ground the things that slip your mind
Lyrics submitted by cardigansweater
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