lines in my hands, light through the walls
i'm writing letters to you with my prayers
long before what i've stood up will fall
or who i thought i might be is ensnared
a man inside a fish, scales from someone's eyes
a family in a great big boat while the rest of the world dies
you're making food to feed five thousand
you're saying "let the children come to me"
in the corner of the classroom i am pulling back the carpet
i'm afraid of what i see
what is truth? what is true?
how big are love and history and what hides inside their mouths?
there are holes in me from things pushed in when i pull them out
and out of which come questions that i can not unwrap
what i once learned is not enough to hold the torrent back
i feel as though the weight of riddles has grown to cruel to bear
and though i long to lift it now the load makes me despair
ask though i may the faces who once led me by the hand
their voices are unfamiliar
i'm not even sure they understand
and now my spine is bowed by the boxes on my back
i don't know how to open them
i want to give them back
and yet you will not stir to ease this burden that i carry
it seems as though you've piled them up and treated me unfairly
it's this devastating world that laughs and steals upon my back
and everything comes crashing down when my will finally cracks
no longer will i tote the cryptic words of ages gone
when i was being broken, where were you all along?
lessons recounted faithfully now fall like clumps of wool
the men and women who lied to me are cockeyed, panting wolves
they wave their flags and cast their stones and sneer with lusty grins
commanding me to a follow a path they have never believed in
they low like cattle with bulging veins and militant fists in the air
join their flock or burn in hell and i'm not sure that i care
crawling out from the wreckage of all that i've been taught
i'm leaving it behind
they fling their venom out at me when i resign
outside the gates i drag myself into a world bigger than i had believed
and inside they flay their sheep lest they follow me and leave
but after everything i've done and everything i do
i can still remember you
lines in my hands, light through the walls
i'm writing you letters with my prayers
after all that i've stood up falls
and i afford you none of my cares
if i ask you "what is truth" will you be silent still?
my questions and doubts have created a chasm
that i fear you can not fill
perhaps the lens i've eyed you through
keeps me from from the truth
i can't find what i'm looking for
and i still remember you
when i relent the shackles of all that i've been fed
i pull back the floor and find something beautiful instead
after everything i've been through
i'm not sure i recognize myself anymore
sometimes i think i might remember
but then i close the door
i walk away from everything and find myself made free
in all the tangles of who i am the truth is that you love me
just as i was, just as i am, just as i will be
in all the tangles of who i am, the truth is that you love me


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    General CommentFrom Josh:
    The Heart Is Deceitful Above All Things: The last and longest song on the record is a story set up in several chapters. The story describes someone raised with a flimsy understanding of faith, God and the bible. Eventually this person grows older and begins to struggle with the ideas they once took for granted and then frustration and anger both set in.When this person takes their misgivings to the religious community, they're condemned for asking the questions in the first place and they decide to separate themselves completely from that world. Years go by and there's this lingering unanswered question and presence being felt and this person finds that they've come to the end of the road, no longer content to have no answers. They reexamine their ideas of Jesus for the first time in a completely different way, separated completely from the religious world and met on a personal level they finally begin to uncover the beginnings of real truth. It was important that, musically, the song appropriately takes the listener through each chapter in this individual's life and when we finally begin to climax to that epiphany we resist the urge to just open it up into an outright worship song, because that person isn't there yet. They've only just begun to grasp the truth: their own worth in the eyes of Jesus, and that, in and of itself, is a beautiful thing.
    honestlyhanaon November 16, 2010   Link

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