This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Yeah it hurt so bad
Just sitting here alone
And all I've ever wanted
Was something of my own
But everything always changes, it changes
Yeah nothing ever seems
To stay the same
And as these days of late October
Are starting to get colder
The stories that you told her
Make us wish we didn't have to grow older
And leave all youth behind us
Will love ever find us
Or are we stuck here on our own
And I have come to face the fact
That once you're gone you can't come back
You can't count on
Tomorrow it might not come
My sorrow I know it's from you
And as these days of late October
Are starting to get colder
The stories that that you told her
Make us wish we didn't have to grow older
And leave all youth behind us
Will love ever love us
Or are we stuck here on our own
As the moon light shines threw my window blinds
And the stars outside can do all but hide
I know this won't last we grow up so fast
And the ones that we love fade away
And for now I'll close my eye
And I'll dream of lies
That seem so kind
I wake up to find another tear
Falling down as we hit the ground and
You know that we settle that perfect sound in me
And as these days in late October continue to get colder
I wonder if I told her how I felt enough today
Cause tomorrow is to late
You should never hesitate to tell them to tell them
And I wonder can you hear the sum of them can you see me I'm slowing down
I'm slowing down into the memories of me memories of you
And these days in October they get colder
Just sitting here alone
And all I've ever wanted
Was something of my own
But everything always changes, it changes
Yeah nothing ever seems
To stay the same
And as these days of late October
Are starting to get colder
The stories that you told her
Make us wish we didn't have to grow older
And leave all youth behind us
Will love ever find us
Or are we stuck here on our own
And I have come to face the fact
That once you're gone you can't come back
You can't count on
Tomorrow it might not come
My sorrow I know it's from you
And as these days of late October
Are starting to get colder
The stories that that you told her
Make us wish we didn't have to grow older
And leave all youth behind us
Will love ever love us
Or are we stuck here on our own
As the moon light shines threw my window blinds
And the stars outside can do all but hide
I know this won't last we grow up so fast
And the ones that we love fade away
And for now I'll close my eye
And I'll dream of lies
That seem so kind
I wake up to find another tear
Falling down as we hit the ground and
You know that we settle that perfect sound in me
And as these days in late October continue to get colder
I wonder if I told her how I felt enough today
Cause tomorrow is to late
You should never hesitate to tell them to tell them
And I wonder can you hear the sum of them can you see me I'm slowing down
I'm slowing down into the memories of me memories of you
And these days in October they get colder
Lyrics submitted by Chaos16a16
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