I've been obviously on the verge of a mental breakdown this week
Stuck between your dirty sheets and back-lit memories
And I've been putting off things like getting my shit out of your apartment
I've been making up excuses about the things that you might need

And I've been trying to find out where everyone's been
But they're nowhere and I'm nothing
And I've been trying to stay as busy as I can

I finally broke on Christmas Eve
In an Outback Steakhouse bathroom while my family ordered for me
Haven't been losing sleep, no I pass out almost instantly
The bad dreams get worse every week
I think I'm losing a little of me

I'm getting better, but it's in small steps
I'm working on sleeping on the left
I just can't blame New York for this
And so I'm down again, but this time it's different
I'm mourning something that I miss
And that's better than being hopeless

I'm counting back on all my mistakes
From the back of the cop car where you told me you loved me
'Cause after that night, I got scared and I'm sorry
But hey, what can I say?

And I've been trying to find out where everyone's been
But they're nowhere
I'm still nothing
And I've been trying to find old friends

I'm getting better, but it's in small steps
I'm working on sleeping on the left
I just can't blame New York for this
And so I'm down again, but this time it's different
I'm mourning something that I miss
And that's better than being hopeless

It's getting weird to think
About the house on Manton Street
And how neither of us live there
It's probably empty
She watches Breakfast at Tiffany's, it calms her completely
I guess Sarah Marshall does the same for me
It's nothing when she's leaning on me and saying she's sorry
I'm obviously on the verse of a mental breakdown this week

I'm getting better, but it's in small steps
I'm working on sleeping on the left
I just can't blame New York for this
And so I'm down again, but this time it's different
I'm mourning something that I miss
And that's better than being hopeless


Lyrics submitted by BryanMac

I Was Scared and I'm Sorry song meanings
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  • +1
    General CommentThis song is about Soupy and his girlfriend breaking up last November.
    And moving out of the house they lived in.
    And the emotional breakdown he had in an Outback Steakhouse bathroom when he found out The Upsides leaked on Christmas Eve.
    BryanMacon September 16, 2010   Link
  • +1
    General CommentBryanMac is right, it's about The Upsides leaking on Christmas Eve (and breaking up with his girlfriend).

    dailymusicreviews.blogspot.com/2010/01/…

    Soupy: "I am a very anxious person. It doesn't take much to get to me and takes very little more to cause me to momentarily break and so, finding out the album leaked on Christmas Eve, right before going to dinner with my nana shook me a little (a lot. A fucking lot). Some things really bothered me."
    TheUpsideson September 17, 2010   Link
  • 0
    General CommentGood song.
    icanthandlethisanylongeron January 20, 2012   Link
  • 0
    Lyric CorrectionIsn't it "verge" not verse?

    Also a question for those who could answer.. what is the reference for sleeping on the left? as in the left side of the bed away from a person or?
    TheWonderYearsfanon May 17, 2012   Link
  • -1
    General Commentehh I kind of don't think it has anything to do with 'the upsides' being leaked
    herestolife1000on September 16, 2010   Link

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