In the shadow of my doubt
This life is dust on naked walls
In the ruins of defeat
The spotlights fade
There's a clown without a crowd
His sorrow smiles relentlessly
Welcome winter, bittersweet
Of final fall

My train of thoughts keep on hauling me over a low again
Easy to see for a someone whose soul can bleed

Who am I to overrule
Believers at the wonder wall?
Some illusions come undone
And violently

My train of thoughts keep on hauling me over a low again
Easy to see for a someone whose soul can bleed

So far astray
When all comes to all
You'll never be satisfied
You might as well let go

My train of thoughts keep on hauling me over a low again
Easy to see for a someone whose soul can bleed

My train of thoughts keep on hauling me over a low again
Easy to see for a someone whose soul can bleed


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    General CommentThis is a very personal song. At this time in the singer/songwriter, Roy Khan's life, he was struggling with issues of religious belief. I think this song has to do with grappling with such beliefs.

    "In the shadow of my doubt
    This life is dust on naked walls"

    In his worldview, there is no ultimate meaning or purpose.

    "In the ruins of defeat
    The spotlights fade
    There's a clown without a crowd
    His sorrow smiles relentlessly
    Welcome winter, bittersweet
    Of final fall"

    He feels as if he is defeated when he loses joy from his passion, music. The clown, being the singer, fears whether or not people appreciate what he does. Despite this fear, he welcomes the end if it may come.

    "My train of thoughts keep on hauling me over a low again
    Easy to see for a someone whose soul can bleed"

    The singer believes his sense of self-righteousness and gathered knowledge regarding life are just barely getting him through places where he questions religion might give him fulfillment. Religious people, those who have souls which are able to bleed, are able to visibly see this struggle in his life.

    "So far astray
    When all comes to all
    You'll never be satisfied
    You might as well let go"

    The singer doesn't believe religion can truly give him fulfillment, so he just suggests giving up on trying to find true fulfillment and meaning. Regardless, he will count on what he knows to allow him to endure the coming storms in his life.
    jeffrey115on September 20, 2017   Link
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    General CommentI can't believe I'm the first one to comment on this song. Great song from their new album, in all honesty, I have no clue how to interpret the meaning of it.
    horrorfestloveron June 01, 2011   Link
  • 0
    Song MeaningIt is clear and simple! Something very heavy and troubled is on narrator's mind, that keeps coming in periods, like echo, it comes in periods! And it is easy to notice for those who suffer the same fate, or have same problems...that is in general!
    nefredilon November 06, 2011   Link

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