If This Ship Sinks (I Give In)

the song could be about anxiousness and it's effects. the type of anxiousness that you get for no reason. "I'm tryna get my head straight I'm playing in a game that I can't win" he is trying to calm down and focus on whatever it is he is doing but he knows it won't work. "I started in the wrong place" he didn't know how to deal with it "a slap to cold face of love" when it starts happening very often, the one he loves doesn't understand "I wanna stop this god damn beating heart it's killing me this is killing me" his heart is beating too fast he is terrified and wants it to stop. "I'm trying to get my head straight I didn't see the warning signs ahead" it happened again he realised he should have told someone at the start "I'm feeling like a dead weight long gone if I could make it alright I would" because it is happening so often he is avoiding many things and feels like he is wrapping himself in bubble wrap and being a nothing. "I never thought I'd say these things to you" his thoughts are going so fast that he can't stop the negative thoughts and the things that he's saying to himself. "and it's killing me this is killing me" it's really affecting him and he is really suffering. "I can't stop this train I can't get off but I can't go back I've come too far to stop" again his thoughts are too fast to stop and he is saying horrible things to himself. "there's too many signs to read them all" he thinks he is going crazy because of all the thoughts and everything this anxiousness is causing "there's too many roads I need to stumble down" he thinks it's too hard to get help because there are so many things he needs to do to receive it and he hasn't even taken the first step. "I've gotta get my head straight I never thought a day like this would come" he's having his first really bad day where he is anxious all day for no reason "I'll never be the same way as once" he thinks he will never be happy again. "I wanna know if this is for real I wanna know what fate has planned for me" he still thinks he's going crazy and he wants to know where he'll end up if his life keeps going like this and if it's even worth it. "I give in I give in..." he has given up and now he really wants to stop his heart from beating. "believe me when I say there's something I wish I could say you were always so good to me even when it's so hard to be" he wants to tell someone but he doesn't know how and he keeps avoiding/ditching/walking away from people and situations because of it but someone is always good to him. "I sailed myself too far out to sea on favoured whims that won't sing for me" he has finally calmed down but is stuck in a void of nothingness. he isn't feeling happy or sad or anything at all. it is a horrible feeling because he feels that everything is pointless and he doesn't stop his bad thoughts because he would rather be miserable than feel nothing at all. "there'll be no rescue no finding me as I've become an old memory" he thinks he is in too deep and it is pointless trying to restore the old him. "you once knew" he used to tell a particular person everything and now he doesn't "it's silent as I sink into the sea weightless as the tide carries me" he is still feeling nothing and feels like he is just drifting along doing and feeling nothing "to darker water where i beleive somethings down here waiting for me" his doesn't stop his bad thoughts and even generates some "the numbing cold is taking from me everything I'm so far beneath" the nothingness is taking his enjoyment out of everything and he feels inferior because people who can feel things must be doing something right (he's blaming himself for everything) "my eyes they open one last time to see you were staring right back at me" the last time he isn't feeling nothing he can see how to truly get help. he sees the person who he truly cares about who will understand and he knows what to do.