This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Take my hand, I'll guide the way
I'll guide the way
Step by step, and side by side,
we walk together, we walk together
Don't be afraid!
Slowly I push open the door
A beautiful blue sky, an ocean so calm
The brightest sun I've ever seen
My vision abstracted by the water's reflection
Then suddenly a man appears along the horizon
Then a voice said,
"With all your fears and questions set aside."
Then a voice said,
"I cry these tears so you won't have to hide.
No matter where you are, I'm always here for you."
Then I noticed the man walking on water
His face so pure, his eyes so deep
With a smile, he reached out his hand to me
Apprehensive, I put my hand to him
Such gentle hands, my blood pressure dropped
Then I found myself standing on water
Welcome, now you're in my Rooms of Anguish
It feels like make believe
that I can't ever find it,
the peace I've sought for years
Has it happened to you, or is it just me?
Sometimes it tears me apart
It brings me to my knees
It brings me to my knees
Don't be afraid, I am always here
I will never leave your side
Take my hand, you will never die
Believe me
In all my dreams, I never thought that
I would ever question celestial mind,
but now that's where I stand
Decipher my words, and take from them what you will
Welcome, now you're in my Rooms of Anguish
It feels like make believe
that I can't ever find it,
the peace I've sought for years
Has it happened to you, or is it just me?
Sometimes it tears me apart
It brings me to my knees
It brings me to my knees
Friends: some say, "I understand"
(So why do you do this?)
I'm the only one who knows,
so why does it even matter to you?
Is this one the only one
from which the pain has started?
We will find the truth together
Feel deep inside your soul
Feel deep inside me...find
Now, as we all understand the reasons
behind all the fears we hide
"Tell me, tell me," they say
It's just so hard
It's just so hard
It's just so damn hard!
Then a voice said,
"With all your fears and questions set aside."
Then a voice said,
"I cry these tears so you won't have to hide.
No matter where you are, I'm always here for you."
Across the sea, and on all land
Just follow your heart
and be the man that you'll be,
and let no one tell you differently
With all my heart I trust faithfully
Welcome, now you're in my Rooms of Anguish
It feels like make believe
that I can't ever find it,
the peace I've sought for years
Has it happened to you, or is it just me?
Sometimes it tears me apart
It brings me to my knees
It brings me to my knees
I'll guide the way
Step by step, and side by side,
we walk together, we walk together
Don't be afraid!
Slowly I push open the door
A beautiful blue sky, an ocean so calm
The brightest sun I've ever seen
My vision abstracted by the water's reflection
Then suddenly a man appears along the horizon
Then a voice said,
"With all your fears and questions set aside."
Then a voice said,
"I cry these tears so you won't have to hide.
No matter where you are, I'm always here for you."
Then I noticed the man walking on water
His face so pure, his eyes so deep
With a smile, he reached out his hand to me
Apprehensive, I put my hand to him
Such gentle hands, my blood pressure dropped
Then I found myself standing on water
Welcome, now you're in my Rooms of Anguish
It feels like make believe
that I can't ever find it,
the peace I've sought for years
Has it happened to you, or is it just me?
Sometimes it tears me apart
It brings me to my knees
It brings me to my knees
Don't be afraid, I am always here
I will never leave your side
Take my hand, you will never die
Believe me
In all my dreams, I never thought that
I would ever question celestial mind,
but now that's where I stand
Decipher my words, and take from them what you will
Welcome, now you're in my Rooms of Anguish
It feels like make believe
that I can't ever find it,
the peace I've sought for years
Has it happened to you, or is it just me?
Sometimes it tears me apart
It brings me to my knees
It brings me to my knees
Friends: some say, "I understand"
(So why do you do this?)
I'm the only one who knows,
so why does it even matter to you?
Is this one the only one
from which the pain has started?
We will find the truth together
Feel deep inside your soul
Feel deep inside me...find
Now, as we all understand the reasons
behind all the fears we hide
"Tell me, tell me," they say
It's just so hard
It's just so hard
It's just so damn hard!
Then a voice said,
"With all your fears and questions set aside."
Then a voice said,
"I cry these tears so you won't have to hide.
No matter where you are, I'm always here for you."
Across the sea, and on all land
Just follow your heart
and be the man that you'll be,
and let no one tell you differently
With all my heart I trust faithfully
Welcome, now you're in my Rooms of Anguish
It feels like make believe
that I can't ever find it,
the peace I've sought for years
Has it happened to you, or is it just me?
Sometimes it tears me apart
It brings me to my knees
It brings me to my knees
Lyrics submitted by Octavarium64
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