Seems like forever
Like forever
Since I tore myself apart
And left my friends in the wake
Of countless tears
And fading life
When I couldn't seem to grasp the life I lead
And the lives I touch
It's one year on now,
One year on, one year on
Still I struggle with the same demons
I shed as I lay there
Lost in my head, lost in my head
Lost in this goddamn hospital bed

I'm not the same man and I don't dare try,
Try to uncover all the darkness I hide
It's like my demons are my lovers

But I've got friends (friends)
By my side, I've got hope (hope) in my eyes
And dreams to aspire to
And the whole world to watch below

And death won't be my lover
I've got so much left to give
And take my life with subtle steps
Instead of not wanting all that is left

Instead of trying to take my own life
It's one year on

And I'm stronger
I want to live much longer
Not grow old and bitter
And not jaded and not hate what life gave me
And let the fear wash away

And let the demons blunt their claws
On a life that's full of mistakes
But always searching for much more.

I won't die defeated
(I won't die defeated)

'Cause I've got friends (Friends) by my side
I've got hope (hope) in my eyes
And dreams to aspire to
And the whole wide world to watch below...

And death won't be my lover I've got so much left to give and take my life with subtle steps instead of not wanting all that is left


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    Seems like a song about an attempted suicide, that opened up the persons eyes and gave them a new outlook on life. And they are going to take every oportunity, and stop being depressed and live life. Epic song

    Campbell13on June 28, 2010   Link
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    its definetly epic. campbel13 pretty muchly got it.

    alltimeellaon July 01, 2010   Link
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    I think its a song relating to their very close friend who died in a car accident, which caused them to create the band.

    sleta0on October 09, 2010   Link
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    This song is truly amazing my thoughts on the lyrics are about a man with a failed suicide attempt and during his deep depression hurting family and friends either shutting them out while they all worry for him and after coming back from the failed attempt which was life changing in many ways realizing there are things he wants to do fight everyday to do the things he aspires to do and be for that he's not gonna take his life for granted because he has family and his friends by his side he will never give up and will not die a quitter

    scottie593on March 07, 2015   Link

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