Scratched out a note I wrote for you
to wake and read
to know that I was there once
I knew that there was nothing that I could write to assure you
of my return
But all the paper said when I was done is
'do you still want me?'
because I'd be terrified if I had to leave this place today
We haven't saved the baby

As I said
my darling
spring is constantly calling me
and there's no place that I'd rather be

I won't be angry
if you have to leave,
but I won't be waiting
for that day
So don't say you're sorry because
I won't believe you

Didn't see a sticker on the door when we walked in
but I know it's going to cost us
the same amount of love it takes to get you through
but it never moves you
I'd be terrified if I had to leave this place today
It's where I threw my love away
Then we saw a different side of 'Annie' nobody saw
She tried to kill the baby

and the earth and its skin will open up
and birth out a perfect mirror
that makes all our reflections clear

I won't be angry
if you have to leave,
but I won't be waiting
for that day
So don't say you're sorry because
I won't believe you


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Spirit Of The Stairwell song meanings
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    General CommentWhat an amazing and thought provoking song.
    infmoeon April 15, 2010   Link
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    General CommentPulled this from an old tweet by Anthony:
    singing the saddest song i ever wrote today about the effects of a miscarriage on a relationship. -a 4:17 PM Oct 22nd, 2009 via web

    So perhaps it isn't necessarily about him and Meredith, as we already know Annie is his mother in law...either way, this song is beautiful, and terribly sad, but that's what makes it a great song. It's one of my favorites on this album.
    jadejuturnaon April 27, 2010   Link
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    General CommentDoes this song has an eerily correlation with some song off of an Elliott album?
    SunBrother11on April 13, 2010   Link
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    General Commentthis song is beautiful, i think most of this album is about a relationship since it feels its a reoccurring theme in the songs.
    spiritedawayon April 13, 2010   Link
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    General Commentread somewhere that this song was about a miscarriage anthony's wife had
    HomerunHenryon April 14, 2010   Link
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    General CommentAfter reading the other comments, it wouldn't be surprising if this song was about the said miscarriage of anthony's wife. although it also seems perhaps an abortion?
    This song opens up such a wide window of other possible meanings if we don't put it with Anthony's life. Leaving someone in a relationship because you both know it's time that it ends.
    kllybwron April 17, 2010   Link
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    General CommentThere is a term in french, "l'esprit d'escalier", which translates roughly to spirit of the stairwell. The saying is used to discribe thinking of something you should have said, but were to into the moment to think of during an argument. Could this song be based around this term? Perhaps the things someone should have said during tension over losing a baby? Whatever the song is about it is expertly written and backed up by emotionally moving music. Cheers!
    BlueSkyWindon April 20, 2010   Link
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    General Commentin altpress a few months ago, there was a tiny paragraph talking about circa survive in the studio, and i remember reading that anthony said he spent time in like a mental hospital (i believe) after his wife had a miscarriage. today they announced they'll be on the june cover of ap so i'm sure that feature will go more into it.

    i relate to this song a lot because my mom had a miscarriage, i think i was like 11 or 12 when it happened, but it's still one of the worst things that could ever happen to a person. i know anthony especially loves kid and i'm sure he wanted to start a family. :/ hopefully he and meredith will try again.
    afflictionateon April 20, 2010   Link
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    General CommentBlueSkyWind has a really good point, I can easily see this being about things said in the heat of a painful moment. I can also see it being a conciliation, after the argument, a way for him to say whatever happens he has no regrets, no hard feelings. Either way it's a beautiful song.
    lilyloveson April 21, 2010   Link
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    Song MeaningAnnie is Anthonys mother-in-law. He said that on their live stream they did on 4/20. I think they didn't want him to say that for whatever reason. lol.
    Joshjubaon April 26, 2010   Link

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