I am a happy nihilist
No absolute truth does exist
When I decide to shake my fist
I only got myself to blame
Cause we're all players
and life's the game

I only take what I need,
I am so light on my feet,
I will not stop or concede,
I am not driven by greed,
No moral compass for me,
It's all just natural feelings,
Existence has no meaning,
There's no such thing as happy.

But late at night when I sleep,
I dream of more than I see
There's something burning in me
A drive, a need to be free.

Why do I sit here and think
about the things that I need?
There's nothing left to believe
Oh, is it all just a dream?

I've taught this to myself
Pile books up on the shelf
But it still hurts like hell
To trust nobody else but me

I used to read everything
I used to need nothing
I put my money on me
I used to be something

Now I can't sleep
Cause I'm not happy

Why am I haunted by the metaphysical?
Is it a cosmic lie or is it literal?
The books I read that used to free my mind
Have made me more blind but the truth I'll find it

I was a happy nihilist
Now I'm wondering why I exist

I've taught this to myself
Pile books up on the shelf
But it still hurts like hell
To trust nobody else but me


Lyrics submitted by topherc3103, edited by Bile

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  • +1
    My Interpretationen.wikipedia.org/wiki/…
    "Most commonly, nihilism is presented in the form of existential nihilism which argues that life is without objective meaning, purpose, or intrinsic value. "
    A quick look at the above will help clarify this song.
    To me, this song is showing the rough road of the awakening of a nihilist. This "happy nihilist" was satisfied with life, but empty. However, he dreams and burns of a need to be free. This is when the nihilist shifts from happy with living a life without meaning to wanting more, wanting to know "why?" and wanting to know that things have meaning. It is a transformation and awakening to a new life that accepts the road may not be (and, at this point IS NOT) smooth.
    All in all, I feel like this is a song about finding oneself and something to believe in instead of nothing.
    Soliron July 07, 2010   Link
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    General CommentThe narrator was content for a time to be free of values, weighed down by nothing and unconcerned with morality. It's easy to not have to worry about doing the right thing. But he doesn't seem to truly believe what he's saying. It seems more like he tried to dismiss his aimlessness and unhappiness by convincing himself those things he lacks are meaningless or simply don't exist. He starts to recognize that denying his needs doesn't make them go away. No matter how educated and well-read you are, you can't just talk yourself out of feeling empty and alone. In the end, he accepts that believing in nothing didn't make him happy. He wants something to believe in, so he's searching for meaning again.
    Bileon June 27, 2015   Link
  • -1
    General CommentSuch a great song of the beginning of the transition from a life lived in pride of self, to realizing that there is something more important. That starts with humility. Praise God for humbling Himself more than any human can even fathom, and taking the form of His Son, Jesus! :)

    Also, here are the missing lyrics that are said towards the end of the song, before "I was a happy nihilist..."

    "Why am I haunted by the metaphysical?
    Is it a cosmic lie or is it literal?
    The books I read that used to free my mind
    Has made me more blind but the truth I'll find it"
    guy4jesuschriston March 09, 2011   Link
  • -3
    My InterpretationIf you are a nihilist, I grieve for you.

    Nihilism is the belief that NOTHING matters. NOTHING. There is no God, no absolute truth, no good, no evil, nothing worth living for. If you follow nihilism to its natural conclusion, then there is only one escape. Death.

    I praise God on high that we have something to live for.
    Pappytechon August 11, 2010   Link

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