This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Je ne suis que l'ombre d'une ombre qui se pavane oisivement
Sur les dalles miroitantes des longs pavés triomphants
Personne ne peut me croire et nul ne saurait me voir
Je l'entends déjà me répondre "et moi alors ?"
Tu ne peux me toucher car je porte la pire des infections
Je la répands contre ceux que j'aime au gré des impulsions
Jamais je n'ai voulu propager cette odieuse bactérie
Pardonnez-moi, je n'aurais pas du rester plâtré dans vos vies
Pourquoi fallait-il que je sois doté de cette terrible malédiction
Cet affreux syndrome qu'est celui d'aimer dune force sans nom
Mais surtout pourquoi donc m'avoir aimé en retour?
Moi, le pauvre magicien qui a raté son dernier tour
Qui suis-je? D'où viens-je? Où vais-je?
Cela m'est aussi clair qu'un sanglot dans la neige
L'accordéon ne joue plus ses accords de fêtes
Et il a craché sa dernière note sinistre sur ma tête
La Solitude s'éprend de mon cœur
Écorché par mes songes en pleurs
Mon âme est pourfendue par ses cents milles poignards
Déchirée par ses innombrables rasoirs
Et toi alors? Veux-tu toujours te fondre en mon cœur tuméfié?
Me dire que tu danses encore avec la vie tant qu'elle te laisse mener?
La piste de danse est plus glissante pour moi qui n'y suis jamais allé
Tu ne sais pas qui je suis, moi non plus mais voilà comment je suis nommé
Je suis la laideur maquillé et le bonheur mal habillé
Je suis la peste soignée et la joie balafrée
Je suis la croix délabré et le clou mal forgé
Je suis le Jésus athée et le Bouddha tare
Sur les dalles miroitantes des longs pavés triomphants
Personne ne peut me croire et nul ne saurait me voir
Je l'entends déjà me répondre "et moi alors ?"
Tu ne peux me toucher car je porte la pire des infections
Je la répands contre ceux que j'aime au gré des impulsions
Jamais je n'ai voulu propager cette odieuse bactérie
Pardonnez-moi, je n'aurais pas du rester plâtré dans vos vies
Pourquoi fallait-il que je sois doté de cette terrible malédiction
Cet affreux syndrome qu'est celui d'aimer dune force sans nom
Mais surtout pourquoi donc m'avoir aimé en retour?
Moi, le pauvre magicien qui a raté son dernier tour
Qui suis-je? D'où viens-je? Où vais-je?
Cela m'est aussi clair qu'un sanglot dans la neige
L'accordéon ne joue plus ses accords de fêtes
Et il a craché sa dernière note sinistre sur ma tête
La Solitude s'éprend de mon cœur
Écorché par mes songes en pleurs
Mon âme est pourfendue par ses cents milles poignards
Déchirée par ses innombrables rasoirs
Et toi alors? Veux-tu toujours te fondre en mon cœur tuméfié?
Me dire que tu danses encore avec la vie tant qu'elle te laisse mener?
La piste de danse est plus glissante pour moi qui n'y suis jamais allé
Tu ne sais pas qui je suis, moi non plus mais voilà comment je suis nommé
Je suis la laideur maquillé et le bonheur mal habillé
Je suis la peste soignée et la joie balafrée
Je suis la croix délabré et le clou mal forgé
Je suis le Jésus athée et le Bouddha tare
Lyrics submitted by FireAbove
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