Cubism Dream

funny how everyone has their own interpretation. for me, it was a missed opportunity. so the song, for me at least, i like to imagine he wrote it from my experience with a girl. a girl that i liked, and she felt the same, but she wouldn't be with me. she felt i deserved better, i, on the other hand, knew she was the one for me. so... with that said, i was into that girl, she was into me, but no one made a move. so its just unsaid feelings at first, she moves ("flew across sea"), we stay in touch ("talked on a small screen"), "cubism dream, beautiful squares i ever seen" = wishing/wanting her from just talking on the computer(still in love with her)and hoping she feels the same on the other side of the (cubed) screen. "canvas was free, gift mother gave to me" = advice from moms that said i should tell her how i really feel and canvas(situation) was up to me to paint it, or control what i do, tell her how i really feel. "joked how they talked so differently" = agreeing on some funny thing where i hope she can realize we are so suited(meant) for each other and they'll find no one else like ourselves(our same personalities). "rot my heart, came and went in the dark" = rot meaning i changed my mind about her. she says she isn't single anymore. she meets another guy, and i'm mad that she isn't with me. i thought she was into me. "changed into man who breaks your heart with his own hands" = i shut her out and didn't want anything to do with her. i shouldn't have did that. i hurt her feelings, maybe broke her heart, b/c she did want me, eventually, but she was uncertain b/c she felt i deserved better. "scan our own towns, make good on what we found" = try to move on and be with someone else. "i was a fool to think i could get by on a smile and a wink" = i just can't move on, b/c i know she is the girl i should be with. i can't seem to be with any other girl w/out wishing it was her. "i make a friend, i make you sick, could you imagine a kiss?" = even if i were to be with a different girl, i would still think of you.. and me knowing that she wouldn't like the idea of me being with another girl. kissing this new girlfriend would only make me think of when i would kiss her. so its like whats the point? really. "we joked.." = i had to get in good terms with her again b/c i can't have her not in my life. "i spoke of how i felt so differently" = realizing that i have to be with her, and she is the only girl for me. hoping and wishing that she could realize the same, meanwhile she don't know if she deserves me. "i don't know what had rot my heart, it came and went in the dark" = i am frustrated yet again b/c she wants me, i want her, but she stays with this other guy. so i try to shut her out yet again ultimately breaking her heart yet again. putting her through this twice now. "in australia, on halloween" = i throw myself back into this same situation yet again, b/c i can't shut her out. so in her hometown i visit and yet again try one last time to convince her that she should be with me. "halloween," b/c halloween is when you dress up in a costume of a different character. = i tried to be like the guy she was with, someone who i was not. "i prove what our love meant to me" = i tried to be that guy that you wanted, but i can't be him, or myself, b/c you don't know what you want, and you can't make up your mind. i tried so hard that i would have tried to change to be with her. "the suffering, the stuggling" = all this that i have tried and you still don't know what you want. i suffer going in circles with you, i struggle with the stress that you won't ever know what you really want. i did it for you = i would have changed all i am to be with you. thats how much i (could have) loved you. "i did it for me" = i finally have had enough of this trying to convince you. "i did it for me (3x)" = finally acknowledging the fact that if i can't be more than friends, i can't be in your life at all. it is too much to bare, to see you with someone else who should have been me. so i have to quit you.. knowing that it is the best option, or i will always be in that situation where i know i will come 2nd, to the other guy. so i have to shut her out for good, knowing that i am doin' this for me, and my own good. b/c deep down i know she will never change. also knowing that i can't really change who i am to be with her... knowing that she should like me for me. so its best to have her out of my life b/c i don't want to suffer. while, still holding on to some false hope that one day she will hopefully change her mind, at the same time knowing that we are just not meant to be. in the end, not really sad about the situation, just hopeful for another girl who will be the girl she thought she could never be. it is a quite the sad song, but i don't see the song as sad... i see it as hopeful. that is just the way I see it. but that is what i got out the song just from my own experience. i am probably wrong as far as what the song is really written about, but i know some of the points in my story have to make some sense to some of you. or maybe you've experienced a similar situation. i know i can't be alone on this. haha