This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Yeah
EOM, man
I like to drink a lot,
a lot of people like to party ‘n shit,
but lately its just been getting ridiculous, man.
Yo, I spent all my money on women and wine
And didn't give enough time to the rhythm and rhyme
I stay focused on the nickel and dime
I should be Benjamin thinkin’
But when I get ‘em I be spendin’ ‘em drinkin’
And then I wake up
Feelin’ nervous and lifeless
A thin line between worthless and priceless
When my life gets confusing ahead of me
I don't ever solve problems I just start boozin heavily
In San Diego I got off work every day around four
And every single day the road worker next door
come home with an 18 pack of Miller highlife
I said, “my life’s headed down a path that is way to sim-
iliar. I’d prefer not to end up like him”
And I’d look up and I’d cringe
But every time I try to change,
I say, fuck it, and binge
That’s my life.
I’ve been with you so long
And my love for you is so strong
But sometimes it feels so cold
And, baby, it gets so old
Wonderin why I
Stubble and cry, yeah
My life’s occupied by music and liquor.
Yo,
I can’t stop drinkin’, I can’t stop smokin’
I can’t stop writin’
I should be the can’t stop spokesman
Addictive personality
Ironically, I write my realest shit when I escape from reality
I drink to forget then I write to remember
It’s been like that since my high school ten-year
I can’t imagine if I never had this rappin’ hobby
I’d rarely be happy probly
But I knew a lot of people when I lived back in Maryland
That had it way worse, gettin’ addicted to heroin
So I shouldn’t be too pissed
I'm just getting sick writin’ drunken self-help do-to lists
That remain unchecked ‘cause I never follow through
And when you move, old habits follow you
And I can’t quite shake this safe(?) from off my back
It seems its safe strapped up tight
Ayy’all that’s my life.
I’ve been with you so long
And my love for you is so strong
But sometimes it feels so cold
And, baby, it gets so old
Wonderin why I
Stubble and cry, yeah
My life’s occupied by music and liquor.
I guess I’m tryin’ to escape from the fear and the sadness
Its madness
turn beer into gladness
It’s sort of like the miracle of Christ
Good timing, I could use some spiritual advice, man
I used to hate the taste of beer as a kid
And they say times change and it’s clear that they did
‘cause now it seems every night I’m intox-
icated by myself in a little ass box
I’ve been with you so long
And my love for you is so strong
But sometimes it feels so cold
And, baby, it gets so old
Wonderin why I
Stubble and cry, yeah
My life’s occupied by music and liquor.
EOM, man
I like to drink a lot,
a lot of people like to party ‘n shit,
but lately its just been getting ridiculous, man.
Yo, I spent all my money on women and wine
And didn't give enough time to the rhythm and rhyme
I stay focused on the nickel and dime
I should be Benjamin thinkin’
But when I get ‘em I be spendin’ ‘em drinkin’
And then I wake up
Feelin’ nervous and lifeless
A thin line between worthless and priceless
When my life gets confusing ahead of me
I don't ever solve problems I just start boozin heavily
In San Diego I got off work every day around four
And every single day the road worker next door
come home with an 18 pack of Miller highlife
I said, “my life’s headed down a path that is way to sim-
iliar. I’d prefer not to end up like him”
And I’d look up and I’d cringe
But every time I try to change,
I say, fuck it, and binge
That’s my life.
I’ve been with you so long
And my love for you is so strong
But sometimes it feels so cold
And, baby, it gets so old
Wonderin why I
Stubble and cry, yeah
My life’s occupied by music and liquor.
Yo,
I can’t stop drinkin’, I can’t stop smokin’
I can’t stop writin’
I should be the can’t stop spokesman
Addictive personality
Ironically, I write my realest shit when I escape from reality
I drink to forget then I write to remember
It’s been like that since my high school ten-year
I can’t imagine if I never had this rappin’ hobby
I’d rarely be happy probly
But I knew a lot of people when I lived back in Maryland
That had it way worse, gettin’ addicted to heroin
So I shouldn’t be too pissed
I'm just getting sick writin’ drunken self-help do-to lists
That remain unchecked ‘cause I never follow through
And when you move, old habits follow you
And I can’t quite shake this safe(?) from off my back
It seems its safe strapped up tight
Ayy’all that’s my life.
I’ve been with you so long
And my love for you is so strong
But sometimes it feels so cold
And, baby, it gets so old
Wonderin why I
Stubble and cry, yeah
My life’s occupied by music and liquor.
I guess I’m tryin’ to escape from the fear and the sadness
Its madness
turn beer into gladness
It’s sort of like the miracle of Christ
Good timing, I could use some spiritual advice, man
I used to hate the taste of beer as a kid
And they say times change and it’s clear that they did
‘cause now it seems every night I’m intox-
icated by myself in a little ass box
I’ve been with you so long
And my love for you is so strong
But sometimes it feels so cold
And, baby, it gets so old
Wonderin why I
Stubble and cry, yeah
My life’s occupied by music and liquor.
Lyrics submitted by BrownieMixOrgasm
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