"Dear Agony" as written by and Benjamin Burnley....
I have nothing left to give
I have found the perfect end
You were made to make it hurt
Disappear into the dirt
Carry me to heaven's arms
Light the way and let me go
Take the time to take my breath
I will end where I began

And I will find the enemy within
'Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Dear Agony

Suddenly
The lights go out
Let forever
Drag me down
I will fight for one last breath
I will fight until the end

And I will find the enemy within
'Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony

Leave me alone
God let me go
I'm blue and cold
Black sky will burn
Love pull me down
Hate lift me up
Just turn around
There's nothing left

Somewhere far beyond this world
I feel nothing anymore

Dear Agony
Just let go of me
Suffer slowly
Is this the way it's got to be?
Don't bury me
Faceless enemy
I'm so sorry
Is this the way it's gotta be?
Dear Agony

I feel nothing anymore


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"Dear Agony" as written by Benjamin Burnley

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  • +11
    General CommentTo me, if you listen to the whole album in order, the whole album is story about someone dying. There seems to be different people's points of view. Some people love the person dying, some people or at least one person does not.
    In this song its the person dying who is speaking. At first the person is tired of the pain and tired of all the struggle and is slowly dying. They just want it all to end. But then, as seen by the second verse, at the same time they do not want to die. The have something in this world still worth fighting for. The person questions why they are in the state they are in and at the end basically screams for the agony to let him go and by the last line of the song I seems it does. The nect song Into The Nothing also lets us assume that the person is either dead or is at the momemnt of death.
    bb0911on September 27, 2009   Link
  • +5
    My OpinionThis is a song I really relate to. It's obviously about a person suffering severe emotional or physical pain and just wants to end it all. The person is asking the pain and anguish they are feeling to 'let go of them;' basically stating that they are ready to die and to stop hurting. They would rather die than live in a world where they are slowly suffering. They 'have found the perfect end' and wish to be carried to into 'heavens arms.' Once they enter heaven; they feel nothing anymore; the agony has gone.
    ifeelnothinganymoreon February 22, 2010   Link
  • +3
    General CommentThis song means so, so much to me. <3 So deep and raw.
    ifeelnothinganymoreon February 24, 2010   Link
  • +3
    MemoryI asked one of my friends about this song, and she said it sounded like someone wanting to commit suicide. I listened to this after that, I was convinced that she was right. I'm 15 years old, and I'm going through depression. It seems so bad right now that I just want it all to end. Everyday I struggle with the urge to commit suicide, and I actually have attempted suicide. This is definitely different than typical suicides, but I'll share it anyway. I took a pair of my drumsticks (I'm a drummer), and than I held them up against my neck trying to cut of my air supply. I didn't succeed of course, but I still feel the desire to die because I just wanna die. My friends have told that they won't let that happen, and I'm counting on that. Great song!! Describes my life perfectly!!
    Capsfan26on May 28, 2013   Link
  • +3
    General Comment
    Now, as many have said, this song is very sad and depressing. But I do not believe that it is about dying, as the majority believe. That is too literal. I believe the message is more encrypted than that.

    The first stanza is peppered with phrases such as "I have nothing left to give", "You were made to make it hurt", and "I will end were I began" all seem to sound like a bad breakup. He has nothing left to give in a relationship, most likely one that just ended or is ending. She hurt the speaker not physically but emotionally, hence possibly making him believe that's what she was meant to do, it was his destiny to be in this situation. "I will end were I began" means he ends up single, just like before the relationship, which may be his fear or source of sorrow. He doesn't want to be single. "Disappear into the dirt" could mean he is going to be buried, but I believe since it directly follows the line "You were made... hurt", that it references that she is now like all the others that hurt him, she is becoming worthless and "normal", she isn't who he thought she was.

    "And I will find the enemy within, cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin"
    Enemy=depression. He doesn't wish to become depressed, perhaps he has been depressed after a similar breakup and doesn't wish to feel that way again. He can feel the sadness within him wanting to express itself but wants to find the source of that sadness and terminate it before he is overwhelmed by depression.

    The chorus could revolve around two things either Agony=the girl he is breaking up with OR Agony=depression
    Either way the chorus is asking the "agony" to leave", just go and let him be.

    In the forth stanza, it describes him dying but he doesn't want to give in, perhaps the depression is so strong he would rather die but keeps fighting to keep the depression within him

    The chorus is extended, "I'm so sorry" could be him apologizing to himself or the girl for screwing up (the breakup could be caused by him cheating), and then "Is this the way it's gotta be" could be his attempt at bringing the relationship back together, but he fails.

    This next stanza shows a great mood shift. Originally, he still liked the girl and just wanted the depression to go away and was more angry at himself than her. "I'm blue and cold" verifies he is sad or depressed. Now the lines "love pull me down, hate lift me up" shows that the remaining love he has for his ex is what is pulling him into depression and now realizes that hatred towards her is making him feel better, so he starts to hate her instead of love her. "There's nothing left" references him feeling no love for her anymore.

    The next two lines are different than the other transitions in the song, this verifies a change in the mood/tone. This references that now he is depressed because he hates who he loves?

    The final chorus is just him back in depression because he has no more love for her and wants to feel love again, when is is not in love he is in agony.
    Waldo1021on September 16, 2014   Link
  • +2
    My OpinionAre there no other alcoholics here? Seriously. "You were made to make it hurt", "And I will find the enemy within, cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin"
    If you have ever felt the pull of addiction, then you get it. Isn't this their first album since Ben quit drinking?! Agony=Alcohol!!! There's your meaning!
    I could sit here all night, pouring glass after glass of Jameson, just taking this song in. Beautiful. I really wish I could quit.
    "Faceless enemy" Cmo'n!! "Leave me alone, God let me go". And my personal favorite, "I feel nothing anymore" (When I first listened to it, I thought he said, I feel nothing in your arms. In my opinion, that would have been more fitting, but it's not my song so what do I know.
    Really, I see some fucking stupid, over-analyzation, of Breaking Benjamin songs here. Like "I will not bow" someone was talking about it being about an indian food restaurant!?!
    Well, I've been listening to it over and over the whole time I've been writing this so I'd better quit before I'm too drunk to make it to work in the morning. If there's any point. Soon Obama will just take it all in the name of Social Justice. Prick. Sure, don't mind if I do pay for your healthcare, welfare, education. "My only regret is that I have but one life to give for my country"
    ld7coaston March 19, 2010   Link
  • +2
    My InterpretationI consider this song to be an account of suffering through cancer (or a similarly terminal disease) from the perspective of the afflicted.

    Eventually, the speaker comes to terms with his coming end, even if the chorus has him pleading for his life to revert back to before his diagnosis. Even if the bridges of the song describe him finding the enemy beneath his skin, in the end, he knows it's futile.

    Although poignant, this song is beautiful.
    S3rpenton April 24, 2013   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI love this song. This is definitely one of their best songs in my opinion; and probably my favorite off the new album.
    Ardoron September 26, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General Commentgod this song is so beautiful and deep.

    well heres my stab at it.

    hes sick of all of the agony, hoplessness, and sadness that hes going through. so hes talking to. well. the feeling of agony itself [pointingouttheobvious] agony being the "faceless enemy" asking it why it has to be so cruel. "i will fight for one last breath, i will fight until the end" he'll fight the agony even when hes dying, to the very end.

    well i guess thats my take on it?

    great song. i love it so much. very relateable.
    oXguitarchickXoon September 29, 2009   Link
  • +1
    General CommentBeautiful song, my favorite from BB by far now. My take on it is its from a POV of someone who has been in a relationship and it has ended with him suffering for so long that he welcomes the thought of death.

    "I have nothing left to give
    I have found a perfect end ---> suicide possibly
    You were made to make it hurt --->refering to the person who hurt him this badly
    Disappear into the dirt ---> death/six feet under
    Carry me to heaven�s arms --->askin the person who hurt him to end him
    Light the way and let me go
    Take the time to take my breath --->make his death slow so he can feel it slip away
    I will end where I began ---> refers to the circle of life, once u die u start back at the beginning

    And I will find the enemy within --->obviously speakin to "agony" itself
    Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin

    Dear agony
    Just let go of me --->wants to get rid of this agony of his
    Suffer slowly
    Is this the way it�s got to be? ---> questions how his life has to be
    Dear agony

    Suddenly the lights go out --->he dies
    Let forever drag me down --->letting oblivion take him away
    I will fight for one last breath
    I will fight until the end

    Leave me alone --> telling agony to leave him alone
    God, let me go --->begging god to let him just pass on
    All blue and cold
    Black sky will burn --->his world is already black so just burn it all away to nothing
    Love, pull me down --->refers to love as his downfall
    Hate, lift me up --->suggests that his love ended bitterly
    Just turn around --->telling himself to look into his past
    There's nothing left --->him realizing that his past/life is meaningless after all of this
    centurion305on October 10, 2009   Link

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