i'm not who, with my eyes from stage, i claim to be,
i've only cradled death in my own ending,
flesh from far off and abstracted lit
candle wick flickering

and when a thing starts finishing around me,
i faint or fake a moustache, an accent, or flee,
in fear my expired license be pulled by sheer proximity

fact: the poseur in the bowler gets shot first,
thinks he's the shit cause he can spit and curse,
actin' brash and flashin' a pistol that squirts,
scowling, and shouting, "shall we dance?"

should our heroes hands be holding this blackest purse?
mom, am i failing or worse?
mom, am i failing?
what should these earnest hands be holding?

still sportin' my ex-girlfriend's dead ex-boyfriend's boxers,
i wanna operate from a base of hunger,
no longer be ashamed and hide my
tears in shower water while i lather for pleasure

i wanna speak at an intimate decibel
with the precision of an infinite decimal,
to listen up and send back a true echo
of something forever felt but never heard
i want that sharpened steel of truth in every word

the small fry in the bow tie dies first,
acting wild like the spirit of god moving after church,
faking he's hard like he's packed down dirt,
already, and yelling, "be my guest"

should our heroes hands be holding this blackest purse?
mom, am i failing or worse?
mom, am i failing?
what should these earnest hands be holding?

should our heroes hands be holding this blackest purse?
mom, am i failing or worse?
mom, am i failing?
what should these earnest hands be holding?


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    General CommentYes, I think the "blackest purse" is the pose of being doomed and suicidal, that young people think is so cool. Yoni admits in verse 1 that he's never got as close to suicide as he's faked on previous lyrics on stage, suicide in fact being a "far off and abstracted" thought.

    He worries that by carrying on the pose (like the bowler hat and bow tie posers), he's "failing" his mom (setting a bad example), or "worse" (pandering to teens tendency to think suicidal nihilists are cool).

    Yoni denounces himself, and sets a new goal for his now "earnest" hands, no longer to carry that "blackest purse" of the poser death cult, but instead to focus on the TRUTH: the "sharpened steel of truth in every word."

    This song is a manifesto for honesty in art.
    yhtrownuon March 15, 2010   Link
  • +1
    General Commentthe subject wishes he could be more open to his significant other about the problems he has with the relationship. he acknowledges that the brash, pistol waving guy will go down first, but he still wishes he had such bravado sometimes. instead he's trapped in this unfulfilling relationship because he can't speak up about his insecurities. he's stuck, basically, being a pussy. holding her purse while she walks all over him.
    brodytheawesomeon August 06, 2009   Link
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    General CommentComaLogic, I think the "thing" that he's referring to is someone's life. I think what he's basically saying is that when someone dies, he keeps his distance because he's afraid that he will die too. When he says "expired license" it's like he's saying that his time is up, you know?
    elephanteyelashon August 14, 2009   Link
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    General CommentI think this song is a reaction to the previous songs of the album. The whole album dealing with death. The song previous to this is "Berkley by Hearseback" where Yoni pictures himself already dead being "Hearseback". This song is a step away from the story to ponder, what it means to write song about being dead. "Our heroes hands holding this blackest purse" aka Yoni being dead. It also a lot about how the songs he sings makes him perceived to be in contrast with who he actually to who he is hence the lines about "the poser" and "the small fry". Basically this song is a critique of his own music in contrast to himself. His character in his songs vs the actual author.
    KennethPickarton September 03, 2011   Link
  • 0
    General Comment:) i'm so excited for eskimo snow.
    NiQon July 26, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General CommentSounds like even more fear of death. But this song focuses on how unfulfilled you feel as a person when death is approaching. The small fry and the poseur are fake and try to act tough but they get the axe first. But he still doesn't feel honest or fully grown. He still wants to operate from a base of hunger.
    I don't quite understand the black purse metaphor.
    Coowon August 01, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General CommentThe part, "and when a thing starts finishing around me,i faint or fake a moustache, an accent, or flee, in fear my expired license be pulled by sheer proximity," What exactly is the "thing" finishing, do you know?
    ComaLogicon August 11, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General Commentthe last stanza of the first verse sounds a whole lot like 'pick fights'.
    crispingsleeveon August 15, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General CommentYoni's master knowledge of syllable flow is so evident in this song.

    I wanna speak at an intimate decibel with the precision of an infinite decimal. The only singer that can put such a poetic flow on syllables rather than words and still get a stronger message than most.

    Very few artists put this much of themselves in their songs.
    glockjawon August 17, 2009   Link
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    General CommentThis song is about how we see our heroes.
    That's what I feel anyway.
    It's kind of like that saying "never meet your idols".
    I guess I'm more literal but he's talking about maybe catching that person you idolize in a bad act.
    It's like your hero running down the street while holding a purse that he's stolen.
    And if you're a kid and you meet eyes with him and you see this crime he's committed,
    I can't help but think that purse will be the blackest purse you've ever seen.


    He might even be comparing himself to the poser in the bowler or the smallfry in the bowtie, as he states that he's really a poser himself "i'm not who, with my eyes from stage, i claim to be"
    so he himself would be the one to kick the bucket first.
    And if he's this "hero", Yoni knows he's gonna bite it first
    yet, his own poser ways will bring him back to running away from situations when they come up.

    even though he comes off as being brutally honest all the time, maybe Yoni feels he's still a fake because maybe not all of what he's spitting at us is true. or maybe it is true but he's bending and hiding things for some unknown reason.

    however, we know he wants to "speak at an intimate decibel", which makes him at least worthy of something.

    that's pretty much all i got.
    fallingfornowon October 28, 2009   Link

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