15

I think this song is about the day marilyn manson turned 15 years old and lost all faith in god. Something to back this up would be the lyric in paranoma of the end times or w/e its called - "the boys 15 but hes 16 gage, wants to get out of his jesus cage" i think he was 15 when he turned athiest.

"If you can hear this don't assume that i'm talking to you"

probably talking about god if god DOSE exist, because if a god really exists its not the same god manson has been talking about in his songs. its some god we all know nothing about so its not that christian god he was adressing in earlier songs in his career.

"yesterday everything, i thought i believed in died but today is my birthday (x2)"

i think he mite be saying i thought i believed in god, but w/e, but lyrics would make sense. its just addressing the day before he was actually believing in god and stuff, and now, on his 15th birthday, he lost all of that belief. and i think he mentioned in an interview that this day gave him 15 scars, and i think that he means each year is a scar to him because he has such discust for that belief.

"i don't need you i'll say it to myself"

now, realizing god doesnt exist, he convinces himself he doesnt need god.

"it doesn't mean i won't need somebody anyone with half a soul will hear this and they'll never leave me"

just because he doesnt believe in god doesnt mean he doesnt believe in anything else, and anyone with half a soul will never leave him unlike the god that left him, or rather, was never there.

"if you don't know what forever feels like i'll show you what it feels like without it (x2)"

christianity and other religions believe in forever, an immortal soul, when they die there soul will go to heaven or hell, whereas athiests believe when they die THEY DIE. so hes lived his life without that feeling of 'forever' and it mite have effected some of the things hes done.

"this time i won't hesitate to kill to protect what i believe in (x2)"

his old beliefs werent worth fighting or killing or protecting. these new athiest beliefs make enough sense to kill for and protect.

"i can get by now i'm not really dead"

its not like hes dead just because he doesnt believe in god anymore. and he can go through life with a much more open mind then before.

"but i really needed someone to save me leaving me alone to die is worse than having the guts to kill me"

i think the lyric is 'is worse than NOT having the guts to kill me'. and idk what this lyric means so someone else can have at it =P

"not letting you win won't satisfy me"

not letting god win over his soul isnt enough to satisfy him. hes gonna teach that bitch about loss =P meaning, hes gonna show how stupid the hole god belief is, to the point where he'll be TEACHING god about loss from how much god is LOOSING, also, god will be loosing a bunch of his believers.

i think the basics is just, his 15th birthday, he turned athiest, decided he isnt gonna let god win, and decided to go out into the world and become marilyn manson =) fucken kick ass song, definitly my favorite marilyn manson song EVER which i wasnt expecting to happen. his new album is really good if you look into the meanings and stuff. definitely check it out.