This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Changing the tone
Changing my mind
Changing the weather
I feel it at first
A blow from the dark
Take it for better
Still I remind myself
How I define myself
Blacker the bruise
Coming up clear
Vow to get better
Blessed with a curse
Hoping not far
The deeper, the better
I needed
I needed to know
I needed
I needed to know, why
Oh no
This can't be happening
Oh no
This can't be happening
Hate
Is a door
A fever burning for more
A red light
In your mind
That I feed on
You must've been so surprised to see
That you were staring back at me
Caught in a web, now
Out on your own
You've got nothing to stay for
Or so you keep saying
This year it's coming
And guess what we're running from
Too late for running
The stitches are coming undone
Grab your belongings
The exit is near
Making your way through
Indecisiveness
I needed
I needed to know
I needed
I needed to know, why
Oh no
This can't be happening
Oh no
This can't be happening
This myth is meant to die
You're coming blind in this madness
I'll bide all of my time for your love
Come on, crooked man you'll die
Like excuses pouring out a child
Sing: "S.O.S. you saint"
But make room for laughter
No man tried here
This water's dark and cold
God's not where you hoped
In this moment come and gone
It's too late, mayday
Call out: "Mayday!"
While I'm still alive
Hey, no matter
I don't want this to end
I don't want this to end
I don't want this to end
I don't think this will end well
Hey
There goes my love again
No-one's
Coming now
Hey
Out on my own again
Fading face
Broken frown
Hey
I guess I'm fucked up again
No-one
Will find out
Hey
Stare at your feet again
Don't say
You don't know
This water's dark and cold
God's not where you hoped
In this moment come and gone
It's time we all moved on
It's time we all moved on
It's time we all moved on
Away!
Still I remind myself
How I define myself
Still I remind myself
(I needed to know)
How I define myself
(I needed to know)
I needed to know
I needed
I needed to know
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
So if you like the sound of
The glass that breaks against the wall
I'd trade it all for several
Pieces of your anger
I am the interest of your heart
Say: "This would wash away"
I'm climbing this rope, I feel God
Would I care to stare you down?
I portray you in different light
Changing my mind
Changing the weather
I feel it at first
A blow from the dark
Take it for better
Still I remind myself
How I define myself
Blacker the bruise
Coming up clear
Vow to get better
Blessed with a curse
Hoping not far
The deeper, the better
I needed
I needed to know
I needed
I needed to know, why
Oh no
This can't be happening
Oh no
This can't be happening
Hate
Is a door
A fever burning for more
A red light
In your mind
That I feed on
You must've been so surprised to see
That you were staring back at me
Caught in a web, now
Out on your own
You've got nothing to stay for
Or so you keep saying
This year it's coming
And guess what we're running from
Too late for running
The stitches are coming undone
Grab your belongings
The exit is near
Making your way through
Indecisiveness
I needed
I needed to know
I needed
I needed to know, why
Oh no
This can't be happening
Oh no
This can't be happening
This myth is meant to die
You're coming blind in this madness
I'll bide all of my time for your love
Come on, crooked man you'll die
Like excuses pouring out a child
Sing: "S.O.S. you saint"
But make room for laughter
No man tried here
This water's dark and cold
God's not where you hoped
In this moment come and gone
It's too late, mayday
Call out: "Mayday!"
While I'm still alive
Hey, no matter
I don't want this to end
I don't want this to end
I don't want this to end
I don't think this will end well
Hey
There goes my love again
No-one's
Coming now
Hey
Out on my own again
Fading face
Broken frown
Hey
I guess I'm fucked up again
No-one
Will find out
Hey
Stare at your feet again
Don't say
You don't know
This water's dark and cold
God's not where you hoped
In this moment come and gone
It's time we all moved on
It's time we all moved on
It's time we all moved on
Away!
Still I remind myself
How I define myself
Still I remind myself
(I needed to know)
How I define myself
(I needed to know)
I needed to know
I needed
I needed to know
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
So if you like the sound of
The glass that breaks against the wall
I'd trade it all for several
Pieces of your anger
I am the interest of your heart
Say: "This would wash away"
I'm climbing this rope, I feel God
Would I care to stare you down?
I portray you in different light
Lyrics submitted by sawyejr, edited by MacStodon, windscare, unexpectedpand
Deadman Lyrics as written by Ian Kenny Andrew Goddard
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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