I'll vomit illusions,
Trick myself that i'm happy,
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.

I think my heart could receive it,
Cheap imposter where you heading,
Thank you my love would you believe me,
Thank you my love would you be listening.
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.

Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe i only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
I'm not real, I Was never born.
x2

I am forever alive,
I hook my heart to my eyes,
I reach from birth just to die,
I keep the devil inside i grow him in me.

I think my heart could receive it,
Cheap imposter where you heading,
Thank you my love would you believe me,
Thank you my love would you be listening.
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.

Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe i only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
I'm not real, I Was never born.
x2

I watched you choke on me,
You leave me unbalanced,
You come back to break them.
x4

Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe i only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
I'm not real, I Was never born.
x2

I AM FOREVER ALIVE,
I HOOK MY HEART TO MY EYES


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  • +2
    General Commentit's about abortion
    the whole cd is based around abortion
    michxm0nsteron June 09, 2009   Link
  • +1
    My InterpretationThis song is depressingly sad. It sounds beautiful yet very sad. From what I understand this is all from the perspective of an aborted son. I'd call this an elegy to the unborn.
    Jericho_Reivajon April 30, 2009   Link
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    General CommentJust because the album reflects abortion in some of the songs doesn't mean every song is about that. How lame would that be? This song does not add up to abortion.

    I'll vomit illusions,
    Trick myself that i'm happy,
    But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.

    He vomits illusions to hide the truth that he is really depressed but he lies to himself so much he's hating who he is.

    I think my heart could receive it,
    Cheap impostor where you heading,

    He knows that he could fall in love and the emptiness would subside (he's capable of receiving love) but everyone he's ever been with, he eventually lost interest in or vice versa and he wonders where they're headed because he still cares about them, he's just not in love them.

    Thank you my love would you believe me,
    Thank you my love would you be listening.
    But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.

    He's flashing back to a relationship where he questions if the person ever really believed the pain he felt or even listened to him, but he lied to himself during the relationship telling himself they did but looking back... they didn't

    Feel me my anger's gone,
    I don't breathe I only AM a son,
    It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
    I'm not real, I Was never born.

    Some deep emotions toward his father treating him like shit.
    he doesn't breath or say a word out of fear, he tells himself i don't want to be like that
    but he realizes he is so he wants that part of him to have never existed.

    I am forever alive,
    I hook my heart to my eyes,
    I reach from birth just to die,
    I keep the devil inside i grow him in me.

    He's learning the anger in him will forever be there and he needs to work on controlling it.
    His heart follows whatever it see's (easily influenced by things around him cigarettes, pot, drinking ect.) He feels he's nothing but a problem and he he was meant to be this dark and depressed.

    I watched you choke on me,
    You leave me unbalanced,
    You come back to break them.

    Back to his relationships, they all were brought down by his anger and depression, maybe the made him upset or angry so he was unbalanced like you drive me crazy. But they keep getting back together because she is good at keeping him distracted from his pain.

    The family disease is referring to the fact that he's like this because of how he grew up.

    EcurbNellaNevetson April 17, 2011   Link
  • 0
    My InterpretationI have to agree it is very sad, and yet so beautiful, like an eloquent Bring Me The Horizon when you listen to the guitar work.
    I think that he is dealing with a love that he can not have, and it is a theme I find relevant in the album. Or maybe a sibling altercation.
    Vomiting illusions-speaking lies to trick himself to be happy.
    Hook my heart to my eyes-his emotions are being drug by what he sees is apparent.
    He seems to be accepting to himself that he is a failure, and the devil, or evil, is inside him.
    He is sick of living the lies. Hence the vomit word choice and the use of the words cheap imposter.
    The only part I don't understand is the part of the son.
    Maybe this is but an elegy to the unborn.
    haha.

    Dariushon May 09, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General Commenti agree with dariush i think the abortion concept to this cd is a metaphor for a relationship that has been terminated if you listen to the album in its entireity it begins to make more and more sense oceana is fucking amazing i plan on preordering this album today!
    fuckinamikeon May 21, 2009   Link
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    General Commentwow i saw it a whole completely different way than everyone else... i saw it as in God's point of view. he is the only one that was never born and he only has a son (jesus). God is everything. he doesnt breathe. it makes sense to me.. i mean i guess its the way u look at it. like i thought the song was about God's dissapointment in the world. like no body takes time for him.. idk.
    sam3546on July 02, 2009   Link
  • 0
    General CommentIt's not about any "god".
    A majority of the cd is about abortion.

    Yup.
    cheap_noveltyon November 04, 2009   Link

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